Vulnerability

There hasn’t been a day that I don’t think about you
Not a time I feel deep sadness that I don’t touch you
Times I wish I could hear your heartbeat upon my chest
Knowing the moment you wake up in the morning and smile in my face
Hear you calling me because you love the sound of my name
Taste my lips because it’s the sweetness that tickles your libido
My hands brings you comfort when the world refuses to show you mercy
I try to hide in my imagination but it doesn’t matter because it’s limited
In it’s influence you’re submission is absolute and my words manifest purpose
My heart always hurts for the simplest reminders of you
Sound, image, thought all tormented in a slow intensity that creates dreariness
At the same moments embracing your love and affection as my only source of worldly happiness
Time this mindless torture has me seeking escape and yet holding onto hope of a perfect contentment
I see you, I want you, I’ve come to need you as peace and cherish you as my next breath
Many times I’ve said I love you and yet feel empty because I can’t experience that emotion
I don’t know that pure expression, I’m limited to this confinement
And it’s breaking me at times, patient isn’t something I am, reckless, impulsive is me
I’m lost on the other side alone, I reach for you knowing you’re in the same situation
So it’s somewhat useless seeking comfort or counsel within the heartaches
Only thing in this long disclosure that its constant and true
Love is so overwhelming and the rest of the madness is manageable