Oops, sorry!  Thought I felt something other than boredom

I've been so long without you
Though I still feel the pain
My heart is scarred over
Forever engraved with your name

You hated all my friends
Forsaken all for your company
Sit ready at your command
Just to suffer all your misery

You ate up all my kindness
Desecrated all my dreams
Poked holes in every memory
Always pushed me to extremes

Now I'm sad and I'm hurting
I should be past this already
But I'm fucked up and high
And I'm thinking of you, quietly

I'm thinking of your wretchedness
How you always hurt my feelings
Nothing was ever good enough
You tore me down just for existing

Laugh until I'm calloused
Numb to all you've done to me
Wandering this wasteland in circles
Knowing I'll never be free