one moment at a time

I live my life
one hour at a time
I can't see beyond that

I lost hope a while back
trapped myself in the labyrinth
in my mind
and I'm still wandering around
trailing blood along the walls
looking for a light
with an exit sign
that says
"Better here is"

Because I want more
than living moment to moment
jumping at the shadow ghosts
that hover in my peripheral vision
but aren't really there

I lived a life beyond
imaginary fears
not that many yesterday's ago
and I'd like to get back there
to a place where
I can sleep peacefully
and breathe easily
without hungering
for a self medicated high
that only temporarily relieves
my hummingbird heartbeat
but doesn't save me from myself
long enough to hope
tomorrow will be different

© Indie Adams 2022