Friendship Hurts

I allow you to be aweful
I know I'm your only true friend
You've hurt me over the years
Countless times.
Made me feel hurt
Embarrased
Shame
And I defended you.
I chose you.
I had other friends
You needed a solid friend
A loyal friend
Someone reliable
I became that
You needed it.
I held space for you.
When you were cruel
When you were dismissive
When you took advantage of me.
I turned a blind eye
Loyal
Stoic
Unwavering.
You will never be grateful
Never apologise.
And I will let you
Hurt me more
Always.