gone insane

it's been once, twice, three times, four
and I can't, I can't take this anymore

the heartbeats were thumping anxiously in my head
then there's the click, infernal silence, and finally the bang
the bullet went straight through my core
dispersing the flesh around it on the floor
I hit the ground still breathing, still alive
the smell of dirt forced its way inside
and I was wheezing, choking on my blood
awaiting the end unbound
I felt its moist warmth on my skin
then saw it blend into the earth under me
then the sirens were howling
and the darkness was growing
growing onto my soul
and I was dead once more

it's been once, twice, three times, four
and I can't, I can't take this anymore

yet I woke up, brand as new
this time, this time too
just to start it all over
back shot forgotten
with new hopes, new lies, new promises
of a love that never even existed

it's been once, twice, three times, four
and I can't, I can't take this anymore
awoken to be killed once again
it's insane