pandemic diary pt1

funny how the slow ways we choose to kill ourselves change
as we get older
(and all my silly accidents; my burns
and broken bones still seemed to hurt
more anyway)
i couldn't tell you how many things
i'd withdrawal from if i just spent the day
in bed to think about them
 
 
 
when my house caught fire
i fought to survive it

i think a lot about how easy
it would've been
if i was asleep when it happened

all of my fire alarms were dead