Deaths song

Another cut to distract the pain
Another pill to keep me sane
Alive but dead in a tormenting hell
Knowing you'll never fully get well
I'm scaring away the ones that Stood by
I scream to the heavens and ask God why
I'm a monster
They see the scars and the reason they've conquered
What they don't see is the pain that's hidden deep within my heart It is written
Living is now my hardest task
Loneliness and depression carefully masked
I think that's the reason I hate the nights most
In my top drawer is a crumpled suicide note
Yes it's true I tried again
To escape this tormenting he'll
But I can't let my family suffer from my cowardice and doubt
So let the days keep trudging on
Sooner or later I'll finally sing death's song