Lights on

I like to fuck with the lights on
eyes wide open so I can watch
the feeling of ecstasy cross their face
see the way their body shutters
listen for every little breath
every moan
observe every twitch
I live for the moment they fall apart
I want to see it
to feel it
absorb the energy as they release it
let it rejuvenate my tired soul
I want the memory imprinted on my brain
scored into my being
fingers always searching for pulse points
so I can feel their heartbeat quicken
feel the way the blood rushes through their veins
I like to fuck with the lights on
eyes locked on theirs
watching their pupils dilate
their face flush
the heavy rise and fall of their chest
lungs begging for oxygen
as our bodies move together
fall apart together
as we become one
I live for the quiet moment after the fall
the sigh of relief
the breathless murmurs
the quiet and vulgar joining