Normal Girl Like Me

Where do I fit in?
Ain’t no place to be.  
Bad bitches- can’t sit with them…
Sometimes, it’s kinda hard being me.  
Because I’ll get on FB or IG…
And fake bodies being praised are all I see…
And for just a “normal” girl like me?
Truthfully… it’s a bit unsettling.  
Cause no matter what,
Next to them?
Im not enough,
Even if my esteem was as high as the sky…
I’m too “normal” to prevent my man’s wandering eye.  
Ultimately, I wish I understood why?
Because my heart is pure.
I know I have good intent…
But stand me next to one of those Big Booty girls…
I become invisible:
And unsure of myself in my skin.  
That kind always wins…
And my kind falls last in line…
The normal girls get played and used…
But you’ll get spoiled and catered to just for being a “dime”
No matter how empty the mind…
Just as long as you twerk that ass
And you’re “fine”.
Me, I’m just a normal…
So you’ll find me last in line…
Doing affirmations of my own worth,
Because as a normal girl,
Sometimes it’s really hard to find.