Inner Struggles

She said "I love you"
Several times at random today.
I know she knows
I need to know,
But even that reassurance
Feels like a mockery
To the parts of me
That question everything good
In my life.

Today,
The whole world feels like my enemy,
And my pathetic emotional flails
Seem useless against
The weight of it all.
Humming "shelter me, Lord,
Underneath your wing",
I strap up for battle once more.