Submissions by KittyFromHell
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write mostly about my day to day emotions, experiences, and thoughts. Every fucked up thought I have usually ends up here.
Delusional
I saw another woman in my dreams the other night.
Her pain soaks through my pillow
In phantom tears I cannot feel.
If this is how the tide must turn, set me free.
The paranoia grows tiresome.
Her pain soaks through my pillow
In phantom tears I cannot feel.
If this is how the tide must turn, set me free.
The paranoia grows tiresome.
#love
#lies
#betrayal
#dreams
#sleep
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stormy eyes
Your love is manipulation
Creeping into the cracks of my walls.
Vines growing like tendrils
Splitting me to my core.
Tears feel like blackmail
Holding me hostage
While your helpful ways
Chain me to the floor.
I feel naked when you look at me
In ways bare skin never felt.
We fucked but love
Was never part of the deal.
There's rage in my eyes
And war in my hands.
You offer me safety and tenderness.
And all I can do is make you bleed.
Creeping into the cracks of my walls.
Vines growing like tendrils
Splitting me to my core.
Tears feel like blackmail
Holding me hostage
While your helpful ways
Chain me to the floor.
I feel naked when you look at me
In ways bare skin never felt.
We fucked but love
Was never part of the deal.
There's rage in my eyes
And war in my hands.
You offer me safety and tenderness.
And all I can do is make you bleed.
#anxiety
#love
#conflict
#MentalHealth
#fear
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Wild Mother
My roots grow deeper
Into soil I never intended to plant myself.
My dandelion seed settled
As a weed growing into a wish
Broken into pieces by a child
To begin the journey again.
Into soil I never intended to plant myself.
My dandelion seed settled
As a weed growing into a wish
Broken into pieces by a child
To begin the journey again.
#birth
#motherhood
#childhood
#learning
#PersonalGrowth
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Dare I?
I clutch my covers childishly
And pull them close
To burrow into the warmth of my sorrows.
The chaos of years gone by
Have become nothing more than
Settling dust and distant screams,
And this bubble I've created
Has become quite cozy.
I have snapped the necks
Of a dozen versions of myself.
Their ghosts linger
As if to taunt me
With glories and regrets
Of my youth,
And their skin and bones
Clutter my halls.
I hesitate to emerge
From this state of reflection
And mourning. ...
And pull them close
To burrow into the warmth of my sorrows.
The chaos of years gone by
Have become nothing more than
Settling dust and distant screams,
And this bubble I've created
Has become quite cozy.
I have snapped the necks
Of a dozen versions of myself.
Their ghosts linger
As if to taunt me
With glories and regrets
Of my youth,
And their skin and bones
Clutter my halls.
I hesitate to emerge
From this state of reflection
And mourning. ...
#depression
#grief
#meditation
#fear
#PersonalGrowth
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Growing Pains
Bitter goodbyes wrap up the past
In boxes lovingly labeled as growing pains.
No longer will I hold the comfort of others
In higher regard to my life and my children,
For they deserve a warrior for a mother
And not a coward.
I've stood too long in the fire
Thinking I deserved the way it turned me to ash.
Grace holds me tenderly,
As my heart lifts up my voice.
Stronger.
Just a little stronger.
In boxes lovingly labeled as growing pains.
No longer will I hold the comfort of others
In higher regard to my life and my children,
For they deserve a warrior for a mother
And not a coward.
I've stood too long in the fire
Thinking I deserved the way it turned me to ash.
Grace holds me tenderly,
As my heart lifts up my voice.
Stronger.
Just a little stronger.
#SelfDiscovery
#PersonalGrowth
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Resolve
Lately, I've been lost for words,
As I finally let my grief and my pain swallow me whole.
Sitting in the woeful sobriety of a new seed growing,
I shed layers of myself over and over.
Some nights, I am reduced to an ugly mess,
Choking on desperate words that seem to linger
Held in the darkness by not so empty air
Where God fills the cracks of my loneliness
With release, clarity, and love.
I never thought the most shaky breath
Would come before statements like
"I am who I am, and I am me."
The resolve that forms...
As I finally let my grief and my pain swallow me whole.
Sitting in the woeful sobriety of a new seed growing,
I shed layers of myself over and over.
Some nights, I am reduced to an ugly mess,
Choking on desperate words that seem to linger
Held in the darkness by not so empty air
Where God fills the cracks of my loneliness
With release, clarity, and love.
I never thought the most shaky breath
Would come before statements like
"I am who I am, and I am me."
The resolve that forms...
#grief
#death
#rebirth
#TimeHeals
#healing
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Take Care, Goodbye
I wish you knew how much I miss you,
But if you did it'd be like you had the last laugh.
You were my best friend turned into lover,
And I thought you were my other half.
Its crazy there was a time I'd have died for you,
And now we don't even speak.
You're still in my dreams even years later;
Goddamn, how'd you make me so weak?
You dragged me down, I made you hurt,
But I still thought you hung the moon.
I'm stuck here in mourning like you've gone to the grave,
A young ball of passion and fire gone too soon.
...
But if you did it'd be like you had the last laugh.
You were my best friend turned into lover,
And I thought you were my other half.
Its crazy there was a time I'd have died for you,
And now we don't even speak.
You're still in my dreams even years later;
Goddamn, how'd you make me so weak?
You dragged me down, I made you hurt,
But I still thought you hung the moon.
I'm stuck here in mourning like you've gone to the grave,
A young ball of passion and fire gone too soon.
...
#sadness
#love
#depression
#loneliness
#breakup
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Forgiveness
I will never quite forgive you
For changing the way you did.
How your loveable asshole antics
Turned to the streets for love
Found in the hands of men
Who only sought to take advantage
Of your childhood wounds.
I will never quite forgive those men
Though I see them every other day,
And I pray for them because I know
That they were once wounded children, too.
I pray that they find healing
And that God uses them for good
Though their demons flow through their veins
And wrap themselves around
Every bone and...
For changing the way you did.
How your loveable asshole antics
Turned to the streets for love
Found in the hands of men
Who only sought to take advantage
Of your childhood wounds.
I will never quite forgive those men
Though I see them every other day,
And I pray for them because I know
That they were once wounded children, too.
I pray that they find healing
And that God uses them for good
Though their demons flow through their veins
And wrap themselves around
Every bone and...
#forgiveness
#childhood
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Jaded
I'm beginning to believe I get worse with age
As anger and bitterness bubble up inside me
Spilling to those around me
Without a thought.
Terrible things fly out my mouth
And seep into my heart
Settling there to rot.
If you love me now
You are strong indeed.
As anger and bitterness bubble up inside me
Spilling to those around me
Without a thought.
Terrible things fly out my mouth
And seep into my heart
Settling there to rot.
If you love me now
You are strong indeed.
#anger
#regret
#disappointment #bittersweet
#disappointment #bittersweet
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Fear of the Future
Terror wraps itself around me
In the darkness of my room,
Where I snuggle myself in blankets
And try to hide from the world.
Depression snuggles up beside me
With a low purr as it nuzzles my cheek.
The confident young woman checks out,
And in her place is a scared little girl.
In the darkness of my room,
Where I snuggle myself in blankets
And try to hide from the world.
Depression snuggles up beside me
With a low purr as it nuzzles my cheek.
The confident young woman checks out,
And in her place is a scared little girl.
#anxiety
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#LifeCycle
#fear
230 reads
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Let Love Wrap You Up
There's something to be said about the oldest sibling.
I see the sadness behind those dilated eyes,
And words left unspoken in those contorted lips.
There's a soul on fire in those empty eyed mugshots
And the gossiping whispers that follow you.
You're the scapegoat of the family;
Even your baby brother blames you for his troubles.
Little does he know you took that darkness and ate it,
Just so he could be the child you never got to be.
Your baby sister has grown to be so confident,
With her college degree and her...
I see the sadness behind those dilated eyes,
And words left unspoken in those contorted lips.
There's a soul on fire in those empty eyed mugshots
And the gossiping whispers that follow you.
You're the scapegoat of the family;
Even your baby brother blames you for his troubles.
Little does he know you took that darkness and ate it,
Just so he could be the child you never got to be.
Your baby sister has grown to be so confident,
With her college degree and her...
#love
#children
#family
#addiction
#healing
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Blurred Lines
I'd say I'm sorry I never gave you my best,
But I was still a child when I was put to the test.
Those storms came and I folded while we both screamed
Unable to hear each other as the nightmare took over our dream.
I look back now on the things I said and did.
I hardly recognize that girl you were with.
How did she get there and how did I get here?
I can't make the connection, can't see through my fears.
The past haunts me even on my brightest days
Those storm clouds in your eyes have me permanently dazed.
Though I look...
But I was still a child when I was put to the test.
Those storms came and I folded while we both screamed
Unable to hear each other as the nightmare took over our dream.
I look back now on the things I said and did.
I hardly recognize that girl you were with.
How did she get there and how did I get here?
I can't make the connection, can't see through my fears.
The past haunts me even on my brightest days
Those storm clouds in your eyes have me permanently dazed.
Though I look...
#love
#heartbroken
#memories
#SelfReflection
#MovingOn
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