Submissions by KittyFromHell
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction I write mostly about my day to day emotions, experiences, and thoughts. Every fucked up thought I have usually ends up here.
SELF POEM
Published
19th Jan 2022 1:10pm
19th Jan 2022 1:10pm
choking on every word I ever said
A moment of horror
Is realizing one of my biggest idols
In younger years
Did her makeup with the infamous "raccoon eyes" for a reason:
The same reason she was so skinny
And the same reason her music
Was so deliciously dark.
The poems I read with my young eyes
Were those of junkies,
And I saw nothing but a beautifully broken soul
Bleeding into their words
With such intensity
That it snatched me onto the page with it.
Now the only person I feel comfortable showing my dark side to
Is one of the same ...
Is realizing one of my biggest idols
In younger years
Did her makeup with the infamous "raccoon eyes" for a reason:
The same reason she was so skinny
And the same reason her music
Was so deliciously dark.
The poems I read with my young eyes
Were those of junkies,
And I saw nothing but a beautifully broken soul
Bleeding into their words
With such intensity
That it snatched me onto the page with it.
Now the only person I feel comfortable showing my dark side to
Is one of the same ...
#addiction
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2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
19th Jan 2022 5:53am
19th Jan 2022 5:53am
Don't Wanna
I don't wanna fly no more.
I wanna sit back in the driver's seat
And cruise to the distant shore.
I wanna feel the wind in my hair.
I don't wanna be rigid, teeth clenched,
Numb to becoming one with the air.
I don't wanna sit eyes locked on nothing,
With my mind somewhere far away.
I wanna let the moment fill my heart with songs to sing.
I wanna sit back in the driver's seat
And cruise to the distant shore.
I wanna feel the wind in my hair.
I don't wanna be rigid, teeth clenched,
Numb to becoming one with the air.
I don't wanna sit eyes locked on nothing,
With my mind somewhere far away.
I wanna let the moment fill my heart with songs to sing.
#rebirth
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DRUGS POEM
Published
19th Jan 2022 5:05am
19th Jan 2022 5:05am
Late For Work
I must remember the jolt of sitting straight up in bed
Frantically grabbing at my phone for the time
With panic caught in my throat
And jumpstarting my heartbeat to send me tumbling to the floor...
Fuck, fuck, FUCK!
Missed calls flash across my screen
One by one in a persistent string
With previews of unread messages
I am too afraid to open and respond to
While I tear around the room like a maniac
Tears welling up as I inevitably smack the ground
Back from my trip to higher planes
And the earth around me seems to...
Frantically grabbing at my phone for the time
With panic caught in my throat
And jumpstarting my heartbeat to send me tumbling to the floor...
Fuck, fuck, FUCK!
Missed calls flash across my screen
One by one in a persistent string
With previews of unread messages
I am too afraid to open and respond to
While I tear around the room like a maniac
Tears welling up as I inevitably smack the ground
Back from my trip to higher planes
And the earth around me seems to...
#anxiety
#LifeStruggles
#addiction
#LifeCycle
#responsibility
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SELF POEM
Published
18th Jan 2022 3:38pm
18th Jan 2022 3:38pm
Poor in Spirit
The accidental tragedies
That have plagued my life thus far
Taught me with a leather strap
All that I overlooked
When my decisions
Failed to be sufficient.
Acceptance is a bitter pill,
But dog eared corners
In chapters long over
Only bind me to regret,
Doomed to be forever
Doubling back to make sure.
Lately, I am poor in spirit,
And my strength fades fast.
I went from big ambitions
To trailer park withdrawals,
And grounding my feet
Seems impossible.
That have plagued my life thus far
Taught me with a leather strap
All that I overlooked
When my decisions
Failed to be sufficient.
Acceptance is a bitter pill,
But dog eared corners
In chapters long over
Only bind me to regret,
Doomed to be forever
Doubling back to make sure.
Lately, I am poor in spirit,
And my strength fades fast.
I went from big ambitions
To trailer park withdrawals,
And grounding my feet
Seems impossible.
#sadness
#depression
#regret
#dark
#addiction
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DRUGS POEM
Published
18th Jan 2022 2:08pm
18th Jan 2022 2:08pm
Empty Glamour
The red carpet looks extra bloody tonight
She steps out with demons hanging on her lackluster frame.
Bathed in the flashing lights, they wrap around her
Like a designer dress glittering in a fleeting moment of fame.
"Who are you wearing tonight?"
This addiction made it's head-turning entrance,
Accesorized with a thousand pages of psychology articles
To give the outfit a little extra something special
While we mix and match disorders.
Winging it with all the skill of a buffoon
That won't take good advice.
The maladaptive...
She steps out with demons hanging on her lackluster frame.
Bathed in the flashing lights, they wrap around her
Like a designer dress glittering in a fleeting moment of fame.
"Who are you wearing tonight?"
This addiction made it's head-turning entrance,
Accesorized with a thousand pages of psychology articles
To give the outfit a little extra something special
While we mix and match disorders.
Winging it with all the skill of a buffoon
That won't take good advice.
The maladaptive...
#abuse
#bipolar
#drugs
#MentalHealth
#DomesticViolence
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Jan 2022 00:07am
17th Jan 2022 00:07am
one step forward, two steps back
Some days I seem to be doing better,
And my mind is more alive and alert.
Other times, I look around and think
I've only decorated the walls
Of the same hole I dug,
And called it home.
And my mind is more alive and alert.
Other times, I look around and think
I've only decorated the walls
Of the same hole I dug,
And called it home.
#addiction
#SelfReflection
#SelfDiscovery #SelfWorth
#SelfDiscovery #SelfWorth
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SELF POEM
Published
16th Jan 2022 6:53pm
16th Jan 2022 6:53pm
Mourning
How strange it is to mourn the death
Of a version of myself that only existed
In a fragmented state within my head.
Things that might have been
Never quite materialized into being
And are more apparition than body.
So very often, the choices made
At the crossroads seem to follow me
Taunting me with all that passed me by.
How peculiar it is that invisible strangers
Can both look and speak like me
With a hand outstretched to lead me away!
Their familiarity wraps me up tight
In a warmth that feels...
Of a version of myself that only existed
In a fragmented state within my head.
Things that might have been
Never quite materialized into being
And are more apparition than body.
So very often, the choices made
At the crossroads seem to follow me
Taunting me with all that passed me by.
How peculiar it is that invisible strangers
Can both look and speak like me
With a hand outstretched to lead me away!
Their familiarity wraps me up tight
In a warmth that feels...
#SelfReflection
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
16th Jan 2022 6:57am
16th Jan 2022 6:57am
Wild Old Woman
She was light on her feet
As a cat, even in stilletos,
Daintily slipping through
Without a sound.
Her gaze was that
Of a wild woman,
Carrying the ever present
Tinkling of something dangerous
Hidden ever so carefully
Behind the poise and grace
Of a lady.
Her hair nearly
Touched the ground,
As if Rapunzel
Had been absorbed
By the witch.
Freely hanging locks
were a cloak of vines
trailing behind her.
They seemed to
Hold each one
Of the stories she had ...
As a cat, even in stilletos,
Daintily slipping through
Without a sound.
Her gaze was that
Of a wild woman,
Carrying the ever present
Tinkling of something dangerous
Hidden ever so carefully
Behind the poise and grace
Of a lady.
Her hair nearly
Touched the ground,
As if Rapunzel
Had been absorbed
By the witch.
Freely hanging locks
were a cloak of vines
trailing behind her.
They seemed to
Hold each one
Of the stories she had ...
#kindness
#strength
#women
#admiration
#wisdom
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SELF POEM
Published
16th Jan 2022 6:28am
16th Jan 2022 6:28am
hello, God, are you there?
Guess it's whatever.
At least, it is until tomorrow
When my mind does a 180° turn
And burns me from the inside out.
My pieces have been scattering,
Lost in the wind.
All that remains is dust,
Helplessly waiting
For new creation
And new breath of life
Deep within my weary bones.
At least, it is until tomorrow
When my mind does a 180° turn
And burns me from the inside out.
My pieces have been scattering,
Lost in the wind.
All that remains is dust,
Helplessly waiting
For new creation
And new breath of life
Deep within my weary bones.
#anxiety
#shame
#frustration
#confusion
#emptiness
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
15th Jan 2022 1:02pm
15th Jan 2022 1:02pm
Come to Pass
I live inside a world of daydreams,
Curled up inside it
Like a nest of blankets,
So warm and so soft.
Here I can nurse these flashes
Of what the future may hold,
And run with it
Until I have woven an entire universe
In my head
Where this destination exists,
Along with five or fifteen more.
I stand paralyzed at the crossroads,
As the world spins 360° around me.
I am all alone,
But the air still seems to crush me.
The devil brushes my hair back
To lean in my ear,
Whispering of all the things ...
Curled up inside it
Like a nest of blankets,
So warm and so soft.
Here I can nurse these flashes
Of what the future may hold,
And run with it
Until I have woven an entire universe
In my head
Where this destination exists,
Along with five or fifteen more.
I stand paralyzed at the crossroads,
As the world spins 360° around me.
I am all alone,
But the air still seems to crush me.
The devil brushes my hair back
To lean in my ear,
Whispering of all the things ...
#LifeStruggles
#addiction
#confusion
#SelfReflection
#SelfDiscovery
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3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
14th Jan 2022 6:19pm
14th Jan 2022 6:19pm
I Did This for Me (Subliminally for You)
A new cycle brings a tired repeat
Of former transgressions I've seen before.
As if last time was not enough,
I begin another endeavor that will drive me to the floor.
On my knees again, this time to pray,
I'm begging God to change me from the inside out.
I've been losing hope again;
It happens whenever I question what my life is about.
Quick fixes never help me;
I know this time will be no different than the last.
Habits die hard with a horrid shriek,
As I keep trying to deal with my past.
Daily habits...
Of former transgressions I've seen before.
As if last time was not enough,
I begin another endeavor that will drive me to the floor.
On my knees again, this time to pray,
I'm begging God to change me from the inside out.
I've been losing hope again;
It happens whenever I question what my life is about.
Quick fixes never help me;
I know this time will be no different than the last.
Habits die hard with a horrid shriek,
As I keep trying to deal with my past.
Daily habits...
#love
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LOVE POEM
Published
14th Jan 2022 6:18pm
14th Jan 2022 6:18pm
16 Pages
A sixteen page letter
Is what I wrote to you.
I've tucked it away
For another day,
To read when
I don't feel so blue.
My head burns
With all these concerns,
I push em down
But they come back around
To haunt me
At every turn.
Maybe you'll skip
Over pages and rip
Words made useless
By years of excuses.
Ears deaf to
All the good tips.
Love you forever
Even not together
Part of me
You'll always be
We are bound
To one another
Is what I wrote to you.
I've tucked it away
For another day,
To read when
I don't feel so blue.
My head burns
With all these concerns,
I push em down
But they come back around
To haunt me
At every turn.
Maybe you'll skip
Over pages and rip
Words made useless
By years of excuses.
Ears deaf to
All the good tips.
Love you forever
Even not together
Part of me
You'll always be
We are bound
To one another
#love
57 reads
3 Comments
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