Submissions by KittyFromHell
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write mostly about my day to day emotions, experiences, and thoughts. Every fucked up thought I have usually ends up here.
Toxic
My heart is a patchwork of memorabilia,
Ghostly shrines to loves come and gone.
Mismatched clothes litter my laundry
Since I've been left all alone.
Their scents still linger for me to breathe deep,
Anything to keep them forever close.
I am selfish with their memory
Even though, in the end, it was me that I chose.
Some might call me a narcissist,
But I doubt I will ever love only one.
I get drunk on love itself—the taste of their kiss;
I'd be lying if I said I was done.
Ghostly shrines to loves come and gone.
Mismatched clothes litter my laundry
Since I've been left all alone.
Their scents still linger for me to breathe deep,
Anything to keep them forever close.
I am selfish with their memory
Even though, in the end, it was me that I chose.
Some might call me a narcissist,
But I doubt I will ever love only one.
I get drunk on love itself—the taste of their kiss;
I'd be lying if I said I was done.
#love
#lust
#war
#crush
#rebellion
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Cravings
I feel the mania creeping in
With its skin chilling whisper,
Lips brushing my ear.
Wild eyes glitter
As an old familiar smile
Spreads across my face.
I am euphoric.
Too much caffeine
And not enough sleep
Fuels my nicotine spiked
Anxiety trip.
My mind replays
Flashes of today's wonders—
Finding shapes in clouds,
Sweet milestones of motherhood,
And the smile
On my wild child's face.
Like thunder rumbling
In the distance,
Old cravings threaten
Months of progress, ...
With its skin chilling whisper,
Lips brushing my ear.
Wild eyes glitter
As an old familiar smile
Spreads across my face.
I am euphoric.
Too much caffeine
And not enough sleep
Fuels my nicotine spiked
Anxiety trip.
My mind replays
Flashes of today's wonders—
Finding shapes in clouds,
Sweet milestones of motherhood,
And the smile
On my wild child's face.
Like thunder rumbling
In the distance,
Old cravings threaten
Months of progress, ...
#motherhood
#childhood
#drugs
#memories
#addiction
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Drinky Drink
When vodka calls,
I scream your name.
In every drunken rant,
You hang on my lips.
That dreaded vulnerable moment
Rises to the surface
In a way all the walls I've built
Cannot possibly surpass.
You linger in my heart
Long after you've gone away.
I am forever tainted
By the touch of your skin
And the way you called my demons by name.
Find me when your journey of solitude is done
And your inner voice speaks again.
I still believe you're the only one
Who ever knew me.
I scream your name.
In every drunken rant,
You hang on my lips.
That dreaded vulnerable moment
Rises to the surface
In a way all the walls I've built
Cannot possibly surpass.
You linger in my heart
Long after you've gone away.
I am forever tainted
By the touch of your skin
And the way you called my demons by name.
Find me when your journey of solitude is done
And your inner voice speaks again.
I still believe you're the only one
Who ever knew me.
#love
75 reads
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Just One More Day
The static in my head
Has been replaced by the sounds
Of roaring inadequacies.
Small triumphs seem overshadowed
By every day tribulations
To no end in sight.
Blind faith seems the hardest of all
When every plan and anxious obsession
Has failed me again and again.
I am so small
And so tired.
My tears seem to fall unseen and unheard
As I stare into the darkness
And remind myself of all I've overcome.
The silence stares back at me
With an unyielding gaze
That tells me I have to keep going.
One...
Has been replaced by the sounds
Of roaring inadequacies.
Small triumphs seem overshadowed
By every day tribulations
To no end in sight.
Blind faith seems the hardest of all
When every plan and anxious obsession
Has failed me again and again.
I am so small
And so tired.
My tears seem to fall unseen and unheard
As I stare into the darkness
And remind myself of all I've overcome.
The silence stares back at me
With an unyielding gaze
That tells me I have to keep going.
One...
#hope
#LifeStruggles
#faith
#addiction
#redemption
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Deteriorating
A shamed grimace in the mirror
After spitting out blood
From days of neglect.
My skin is horrid and yellow,
And my eyes hold only death.
I used to be so beautiful,
At least on the outside.
Now it seems I've been turned
Inside out,
With all my ugliest parts
For the world to see.
After spitting out blood
From days of neglect.
My skin is horrid and yellow,
And my eyes hold only death.
I used to be so beautiful,
At least on the outside.
Now it seems I've been turned
Inside out,
With all my ugliest parts
For the world to see.
#anxiety
#depression
#dark
#SelfHarm
#addiction
102 reads
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Karma
How quickly the tables turn,
And oh! How it makes me squirm!
A million eyes pointed at me,
Accompanied by a tightness in my chest:
Conviction gripping me mercilessly.
I've seen this play out before—
Once from the other side,
And neither have been that pleasant.
And oh! How it makes me squirm!
A million eyes pointed at me,
Accompanied by a tightness in my chest:
Conviction gripping me mercilessly.
I've seen this play out before—
Once from the other side,
And neither have been that pleasant.
#anxiety
#LifeChangingMoment
#LifeCycle #karma
#LifeCycle #karma
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All the Wrong Reasons
I love you because you know how to leave.
You who touched my heart full of longing
Through thick clouds of weed smoke,
Making the high feel like the stars had aligned.
I love you because you taught me how to burn alive
When the numbness inside erupted into fire.
I walked happily through hell again and again
If only to hold your hand one more time.
I love you because you know how to make me feel lonely
Because lonely is all I've ever known.
I know only too well the feeling of my heart sinking,
And you never heard me long...
You who touched my heart full of longing
Through thick clouds of weed smoke,
Making the high feel like the stars had aligned.
I love you because you taught me how to burn alive
When the numbness inside erupted into fire.
I walked happily through hell again and again
If only to hold your hand one more time.
I love you because you know how to make me feel lonely
Because lonely is all I've ever known.
I know only too well the feeling of my heart sinking,
And you never heard me long...
#love
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When Words Fail Me
When I don't write,
I am happy.
I'm smiling bigger and often,
Taking more pictures
Of treasurable moments,
And singing in the aisles at work
Like no one is listening.
When I don't write,
It's because the warmth
And brightness of the sun
Has crept into my bones,
Shaking off seasonal depression
And the chains of addiction.
I feel free.
When I don't write,
I am dancing on the pages
Of my newest chapter,
Words falling from my feet
In sequences never before seen,
With the faith of...
I am happy.
I'm smiling bigger and often,
Taking more pictures
Of treasurable moments,
And singing in the aisles at work
Like no one is listening.
When I don't write,
It's because the warmth
And brightness of the sun
Has crept into my bones,
Shaking off seasonal depression
And the chains of addiction.
I feel free.
When I don't write,
I am dancing on the pages
Of my newest chapter,
Words falling from my feet
In sequences never before seen,
With the faith of...
#summer
#rebirth
#addiction
#LifeChangingMoment
#freedom
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Unlocked
Memories tucked behind closed doors
Stay safely locked away beyond reach,
Until a tempest sweeps down these halls
Through shutters blown open from outside.
These feelings engulf me in a whirlwind,
And there is nowhere safe to hide.
Dust had begun to gather on the knobs,
And I'd all but forgotten what lay beyond.
I'd rearranged my shelves with knick knacks,
Placed contentedly behind my eyes.
Boxes on boxes of forgotten relics
Little by little, it all came back.
Stay safely locked away beyond reach,
Until a tempest sweeps down these halls
Through shutters blown open from outside.
These feelings engulf me in a whirlwind,
And there is nowhere safe to hide.
Dust had begun to gather on the knobs,
And I'd all but forgotten what lay beyond.
I'd rearranged my shelves with knick knacks,
Placed contentedly behind my eyes.
Boxes on boxes of forgotten relics
Little by little, it all came back.
#love
#forgiveness
#TimeHeals
#MovingOn
#acceptance
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Start Again
No more one foot out the door promises
To set the scene of a crime.
I'm choosing to chose the one
Who fought to be by my side.
The intensity fucking terrifies me
How quickly we pull each other close.
The intentions of forever frighten me,
But now I know I'm never letting go.
I'm taking this leap of faith now
With all my scars and fears in tow.
I tried to run to no avail,
But you feel right to my soul.
To set the scene of a crime.
I'm choosing to chose the one
Who fought to be by my side.
The intensity fucking terrifies me
How quickly we pull each other close.
The intentions of forever frighten me,
But now I know I'm never letting go.
I'm taking this leap of faith now
With all my scars and fears in tow.
I tried to run to no avail,
But you feel right to my soul.
#love
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miss u, love me
I suck at expressing myself,
And your directness shrivels me into a corner.
I bleed into these words to tell you things
Without ever opening my lips
To meet you face to face
Eye to eye
Like a grown woman.
Like a child,
I hide behind pretty poetry
and daydreams.
Your logic and calm
Infuriate me;
I'd rather live inside a rabbit hole,
A wonderland of walls
Built to keep you
And your lovesick insanity out.
I miss the music
And the stupid memes,
But to move forward
Without one foot...
And your directness shrivels me into a corner.
I bleed into these words to tell you things
Without ever opening my lips
To meet you face to face
Eye to eye
Like a grown woman.
Like a child,
I hide behind pretty poetry
and daydreams.
Your logic and calm
Infuriate me;
I'd rather live inside a rabbit hole,
A wonderland of walls
Built to keep you
And your lovesick insanity out.
I miss the music
And the stupid memes,
But to move forward
Without one foot...
#love
#regret
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Call Me Baby One More Time
How do I tell you that I miss you
Or that I wonder what we could have been?
I can't even be sure if this feeling is real
Or if I'm just in love with daydreaming.
All I know is I'm lonely;
In the silence, I hear my thoughts screaming.
Your mood swings and mine combined
Make for a hell of a playground.
They all tell me that you were crazy bout me,
But some part of me refuses to believe it's true.
A man could try to spoil me,
And to reject it seems like the only thing to do.
I can't figure out which of us are to blame, ...
Or that I wonder what we could have been?
I can't even be sure if this feeling is real
Or if I'm just in love with daydreaming.
All I know is I'm lonely;
In the silence, I hear my thoughts screaming.
Your mood swings and mine combined
Make for a hell of a playground.
They all tell me that you were crazy bout me,
But some part of me refuses to believe it's true.
A man could try to spoil me,
And to reject it seems like the only thing to do.
I can't figure out which of us are to blame, ...
#love
#regret
#boyfriend
#lover
#emotions
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