Yellowing pages Crinkled edges A lost love poured into paper I hear your voice choking When I read For the thousandth time Every broken word scrawled In your Declaration worthy cursive I kept them all I never forgot And still your kiss haunts me At night when I take my slumber
You are a drunken table top dance in the middle of a graveyard You are a dead sleep burrowed under ten blankets in the chaos of a rave You are a cancelled thrilling Netflix series left on a cliff hanger You are a zealous patriot at a memorial singing the wrong song of the brave
You are a comforting whisper in a stampede of buffalo You are a lighthouse in a storm that leads the wrong way You are a corpse perched on main street in the heat of summer You are a string of vows at a wedding I cannot form to say
There's a new monkey on my back Swinging from the kudzu monster looming over my head My life has become a labyrinth of lack luster shape Morphing like the will of a dope dream Sober as John the Baptist but drowning in the waters that were supposed to save me They say truth will set you free But the truth is coming in violent waves Of betrayal, buried memories, and forgotten childhood dreams left to rot My shell was lonely and cold but it kept me safe Now I'm ducking and dodging my own mind on the daily Running from the very things...
I'm sober loved sheltered fed clothed held in a warm cocoon of arms every night I used to be gifted had all the potential, they said I pushed and pushed until I could no longer now I'm facing the darkest hour afraid to reach for someones hand because I've never felt so much like ending my life I used to be a fighter now I just want to sleep forever
smoke curling off our lips cross fading pinky promises and foolish adult pleasures tucked away from the world we escape together like the carefree drifters we once longed to be just for a moment we're frozen in time