Submissions by KittyFromHell
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction I write mostly about my day to day emotions, experiences, and thoughts. Every fucked up thought I have usually ends up here.
SELF POEM
Published
Yesterday 6:14am
Yesterday 6:14am
Fighting Relapse
Unbidden tears rise to my eyes
Threatening to pierce
The most inconvenient of settings.
I am a breakdown in the aisle at work
Ducked into the bathroom
To hide my shame from the public eye.
I am heat rising to my face
Seeing cold looks
On what should have been a warm face.
These people were family.
Shining lights in my world of darkness,
But of course, I fight a love tooth and nail
That was never supposed to be mine
Until I stand alone in a crowd,
With the smile of a sad clown
And a creepy little critter gnawing ...
Threatening to pierce
The most inconvenient of settings.
I am a breakdown in the aisle at work
Ducked into the bathroom
To hide my shame from the public eye.
I am heat rising to my face
Seeing cold looks
On what should have been a warm face.
These people were family.
Shining lights in my world of darkness,
But of course, I fight a love tooth and nail
That was never supposed to be mine
Until I stand alone in a crowd,
With the smile of a sad clown
And a creepy little critter gnawing ...
#lover
#addiction
#MentalHealth
#TimeHeals
#healing
12 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
Yesterday 6:06am
Yesterday 6:06am
Sobriety and Reality
In between smiles,
The weight of my mistakes
Crush my very existence.
Small joys slip through the cracks.
Self hatred and self flagellation
Feed each other's gluttonous mouths
As they consume all that is left of me.
I no longer even take myself seriously.
Everyone is a mirror that reflects
Back the worst pieces of me
No matter the effort
To bring them joy
Or myself peace.
I am made up of a dopamine crash
Perpetually falling,
Muscles tensed,
Waiting to splatter on the bottom...
Awaiting a confirmation,...
The weight of my mistakes
Crush my very existence.
Small joys slip through the cracks.
Self hatred and self flagellation
Feed each other's gluttonous mouths
As they consume all that is left of me.
I no longer even take myself seriously.
Everyone is a mirror that reflects
Back the worst pieces of me
No matter the effort
To bring them joy
Or myself peace.
I am made up of a dopamine crash
Perpetually falling,
Muscles tensed,
Waiting to splatter on the bottom...
Awaiting a confirmation,...
#love
#fall
#addiction
#hell
#healing
13 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
28th Jul 2021 00:37am
28th Jul 2021 00:37am
Hell's Chains
Hell is coming up for me
Cloaked in the sweltering heat of the South
My demons lurk hungrily in my mind
Swaying to the hymns I sing from my mouth
A playlist that takes me back
Wraps me up in a world of grey.
If insanity is repetition
Then I'm in a waking looney bin every day.
Unleash the cooing succubi
That drive men to their knees.
Save the scraps for my lonely heart
As I escape into the calling trees.
Cloaked in the sweltering heat of the South
My demons lurk hungrily in my mind
Swaying to the hymns I sing from my mouth
A playlist that takes me back
Wraps me up in a world of grey.
If insanity is repetition
Then I'm in a waking looney bin every day.
Unleash the cooing succubi
That drive men to their knees.
Save the scraps for my lonely heart
As I escape into the calling trees.
#anxiety
#love
#regret
#addiction
#disappointment
19 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
23rd Jul 2021 9:48am
23rd Jul 2021 9:48am
Letter to a Former Lover
Get up off the floor,
You broken creature
With the beautiful soul.
I cursed you moons ago
Amidst the agony
Of all my woes.
How many times
Have your knees hit the floor?
Head cradled in your hands
Lips contorted in wails
From a heart exhausted
On these hellish trails?
It was your demons
That sought me out
Pages to be read
By my ever greedy eyes
Content to bask in your fiery light
Even when it was shrouded with lies.
I am not a God
And barely a woman.
I have no...
You broken creature
With the beautiful soul.
I cursed you moons ago
Amidst the agony
Of all my woes.
How many times
Have your knees hit the floor?
Head cradled in your hands
Lips contorted in wails
From a heart exhausted
On these hellish trails?
It was your demons
That sought me out
Pages to be read
By my ever greedy eyes
Content to bask in your fiery light
Even when it was shrouded with lies.
I am not a God
And barely a woman.
I have no...
#fate
#addiction
#freedom
#healing
#karma
21 reads
1 Comment
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
23rd Jul 2021 5:38am
23rd Jul 2021 5:38am
Wishful Prayers
The headlights in the fog
Seem to be floating slowly
As they zoom past
On the other side of the interstate.
The moon is full
And seems to wink at me
"darling, it's never too late "
Yesterday's tears still permeate
The ground where my knees
Buckled and fell to surrender.
Tonight my car is falling apart
And so am I, in moments...
Fighting an impending bender.
No, demon, you don't define me.
There's a distant sound of crows
Fleeing from a warning shot.
The petals of childlike wishes ...
Seem to be floating slowly
As they zoom past
On the other side of the interstate.
The moon is full
And seems to wink at me
"darling, it's never too late "
Yesterday's tears still permeate
The ground where my knees
Buckled and fell to surrender.
Tonight my car is falling apart
And so am I, in moments...
Fighting an impending bender.
No, demon, you don't define me.
There's a distant sound of crows
Fleeing from a warning shot.
The petals of childlike wishes ...
#childhood
#drugs
#addiction
#TimeHeals
#healing
26 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
10th Jul 2021 7:59am
10th Jul 2021 7:59am
Song to Sing
Truthfully, I sing with a new triumph
Down the aisles of mundane living
With the vigor of all my angels in my lungs.
but you hear the tantalizing call of all your darkest fantasies
Truthfully, my smile is brighter these days
And my laughter rings through the darkness
With a light from deep within my soul.
but you still see dead eyes in the mirror that scream for help
Truthfully, I resisted the temptations thus far
Pushed onward seeing the smile on my daughter's face...
My, how she's grown!
all you've...
Down the aisles of mundane living
With the vigor of all my angels in my lungs.
but you hear the tantalizing call of all your darkest fantasies
Truthfully, my smile is brighter these days
And my laughter rings through the darkness
With a light from deep within my soul.
but you still see dead eyes in the mirror that scream for help
Truthfully, I resisted the temptations thus far
Pushed onward seeing the smile on my daughter's face...
My, how she's grown!
all you've...
#love
#addiction
#TimeHeals
#MovingOn
#healing
38 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
2nd Jul 2021 8:00am
2nd Jul 2021 8:00am
Dying Pieces
You once told me it would take pieces of me,
And now I see the hell you tried to show me in your eyes.
The sight of you losing your mind in my driveway
Should have shown me the truth behind my world of lies.
You once took my hand and pulled me from the dark
With only the words "don't fucking lie to me"
I'm watching you die as my heart is breaking,
And I don't know if it's for you or these hollow parts of me.
Longing to long for something is what echoes in my chest:
The aching to wear you on my skin glowing in the sunshine.
I...
And now I see the hell you tried to show me in your eyes.
The sight of you losing your mind in my driveway
Should have shown me the truth behind my world of lies.
You once took my hand and pulled me from the dark
With only the words "don't fucking lie to me"
I'm watching you die as my heart is breaking,
And I don't know if it's for you or these hollow parts of me.
Longing to long for something is what echoes in my chest:
The aching to wear you on my skin glowing in the sunshine.
I...
#love
#drugs
#addiction
40 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
2nd Jul 2021 7:11am
2nd Jul 2021 7:11am
Have Mercy on My Soul
Tearing through the woods
With the devil on my heels
As my trance takes me from the shelves of Walmart
Full of eyes oblivious to the desolate plea in my soul
To the quiet haven of gravel and dust
Where my most innocent wild dreams
Were born
Something in the air takes me from her clutches
As a song wafts through the speakers of my beaten up car.
My hands drop the noose as I stare in horror
And a message comes through divine timing...
Through the screams and choked sobs
From one of the many new niggers of society
I...
With the devil on my heels
As my trance takes me from the shelves of Walmart
Full of eyes oblivious to the desolate plea in my soul
To the quiet haven of gravel and dust
Where my most innocent wild dreams
Were born
Something in the air takes me from her clutches
As a song wafts through the speakers of my beaten up car.
My hands drop the noose as I stare in horror
And a message comes through divine timing...
Through the screams and choked sobs
From one of the many new niggers of society
I...
#suicide
#drugs
#addiction
#IMissYou
#healing
58 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
24th Jun 2021 6:33am
24th Jun 2021 6:33am
Ill Fated Lovers
Like a rush gone straight to the head,
Your lips crush mine in a heated frenzy,
Consuming me in a blaze.
In this, I rise and dissipate
Like smoke signals reaching to touch a moonlit sky,
Even on nights where we walk solo.
Split realities that rip into one another
When paths cross
Cannot make a home of each other—
I am an earthquake and you are a tsunami,
And our chaotic love notes are best left
As dust and mist
That will fade back into the core of us
As the destruction left in our wake
Becomes nothing but a fading...
Your lips crush mine in a heated frenzy,
Consuming me in a blaze.
In this, I rise and dissipate
Like smoke signals reaching to touch a moonlit sky,
Even on nights where we walk solo.
Split realities that rip into one another
When paths cross
Cannot make a home of each other—
I am an earthquake and you are a tsunami,
And our chaotic love notes are best left
As dust and mist
That will fade back into the core of us
As the destruction left in our wake
Becomes nothing but a fading...
#love
#lust
#astrology
#lover
#passion
53 reads
5 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
24th Jun 2021 00:34am
24th Jun 2021 00:34am
Chemical Tears
I still taste your bitter tears
Spilled from your cheek to mine
Like a late chemical drip,
Choking on a truth
Too much to swallow.
My demons wail as I pull upward
Out from the pit
With the last meager shred of strength
Left in my limbs
With the smothered screams
Of a secret that is killing me
And I dare not ask to be saved,
For fear of the only shining light
In my world of darkness
Be taken away.
Love me in my darkest hour
I beg of you
I am still fighting
Spilled from your cheek to mine
Like a late chemical drip,
Choking on a truth
Too much to swallow.
My demons wail as I pull upward
Out from the pit
With the last meager shred of strength
Left in my limbs
With the smothered screams
Of a secret that is killing me
And I dare not ask to be saved,
For fear of the only shining light
In my world of darkness
Be taken away.
Love me in my darkest hour
I beg of you
I am still fighting
#LifeStruggles
#addiction
59 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
23rd Jun 2021 7:39am
23rd Jun 2021 7:39am
Boy King
I cling to every memory
With the frantic desperation
Of a defamed scribe
As he carries his last shrivel of truth
On his back
I won't forget who I am
I replay even the mere echoes of words
Exchanged back when our love was sweet
Marked by bouquets of wildflowers
And boyish smiles
Met at my door with piercing eyes
And a cocky stride
I grew to love
And found safety in
Even when our demons exchanged glares
Poised at each other's throats
I lie alone at night
And mourn two souls...
With the frantic desperation
Of a defamed scribe
As he carries his last shrivel of truth
On his back
I won't forget who I am
I replay even the mere echoes of words
Exchanged back when our love was sweet
Marked by bouquets of wildflowers
And boyish smiles
Met at my door with piercing eyes
And a cocky stride
I grew to love
And found safety in
Even when our demons exchanged glares
Poised at each other's throats
I lie alone at night
And mourn two souls...
#love
#BestFriend
#friendship #SelfDiscovery
#friendship #SelfDiscovery
41 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
23rd Jun 2021 1:36am
23rd Jun 2021 1:36am
Downward
My life has been swept into a tempest,
Tossed on its face,
And nudged ever onward.
Eyes blinded by the stinging frenzy
Of winds nipping at my skin.
Piece by piece my body strips itself from my ribs,
Leaving my heart just as tender and exposed
As it is numb to all the splendid poetry
That my soul once sang.
I cannot submit without a challenge,
And I cannot lead when my head screams for rest.
I bear the horrid nothingness of solitude
With a lonely little echo in my chest
Reminding me of when my lips came alive
To...
Tossed on its face,
And nudged ever onward.
Eyes blinded by the stinging frenzy
Of winds nipping at my skin.
Piece by piece my body strips itself from my ribs,
Leaving my heart just as tender and exposed
As it is numb to all the splendid poetry
That my soul once sang.
I cannot submit without a challenge,
And I cannot lead when my head screams for rest.
I bear the horrid nothingness of solitude
With a lonely little echo in my chest
Reminding me of when my lips came alive
To...
#sadness
#love
#lover
#addiction
#MentalHealth
50 reads
4 Comments
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