Submissions by KittyFromHell
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write mostly about my day to day emotions, experiences, and thoughts. Every fucked up thought I have usually ends up here.
SELF POEM
Published
26th Oct 2022 5:50am
26th Oct 2022 5:50am
Stuck in Limbo
In between everything that was
And everything to be
Is something that doesn't quite feel like the present.
My eyes are absent
From the scenes before me
As my mind and heart run away hand in hand
Frolicking through time and space
To places I cannot name or describe.
My mirror is a tell tale sign
As my hair colors change every other week,
My face breaks out,
And my eyebrows alternate between groomed and wild.
Gentleness with myself does not come easy
Because all my self doubt
Screams so fucking...
And everything to be
Is something that doesn't quite feel like the present.
My eyes are absent
From the scenes before me
As my mind and heart run away hand in hand
Frolicking through time and space
To places I cannot name or describe.
My mirror is a tell tale sign
As my hair colors change every other week,
My face breaks out,
And my eyebrows alternate between groomed and wild.
Gentleness with myself does not come easy
Because all my self doubt
Screams so fucking...
#MentalHealth
#SelfReflection
#SelfDiscovery
#healing
#SelfWorth
94 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
22nd Oct 2022 1:06am
22nd Oct 2022 1:06am
Sober Joke
Somehow I have trampled through these last few months
Feeling crazier than I've ever been
With the latest dear-God-why-did-I-do-that's
Haunting me every night and day.
The drugs are no longer my scapegoat;
I'm left with the sad state of my being
That is ass backward and selfish,
Seemingly forever stuck in my ways.
I'm still on an island that feels ever so familiar.
Like the solitude is all I've ever known.
Anger and paranoia shoot like badly aimed javelins
Hurled at the ones I claim to love and adore.
"I...
Feeling crazier than I've ever been
With the latest dear-God-why-did-I-do-that's
Haunting me every night and day.
The drugs are no longer my scapegoat;
I'm left with the sad state of my being
That is ass backward and selfish,
Seemingly forever stuck in my ways.
I'm still on an island that feels ever so familiar.
Like the solitude is all I've ever known.
Anger and paranoia shoot like badly aimed javelins
Hurled at the ones I claim to love and adore.
"I...
#loneliness
#dark
#despair
#emptiness
#fear
98 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
22nd Oct 2022 00:53am
22nd Oct 2022 00:53am
All Written Out
Beautiful words escape me
As they waft through the cracks of my home
Like cigarette smoke and mold particles
Dancing around my aching head
Before they leave me just a little more sick
And depraved.
As they waft through the cracks of my home
Like cigarette smoke and mold particles
Dancing around my aching head
Before they leave me just a little more sick
And depraved.
#loneliness
#SelfHarm
#SelfReflection
#emptiness
#poverty
93 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
24th Sep 2022 8:52am
24th Sep 2022 8:52am
Alone Still
What do you do
When you're drunk and alone
Unsure of who you're singing to
When these soul wrenching songs come on
From a heartless misfit
That's burned every bridge
Wasted every moment
Broken every heart
Cried every last tear...
What do you do?
When you're drunk and alone
Unsure of who you're singing to
When these soul wrenching songs come on
From a heartless misfit
That's burned every bridge
Wasted every moment
Broken every heart
Cried every last tear...
What do you do?
#depression
134 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
15th Sep 2022 3:07am
15th Sep 2022 3:07am
I Did It
The highway hums beneath me
As the miles fade in the rearview.
I'm on the way up from hell,
With the devil nipping at my heels.
The darkness will come as it always does,
But I grow stronger every day.
My faith is different in these times,
And I've taken up my sword and shield.
My eyes are full of twinkling stars
And the whole world is my sky.
As the miles fade in the rearview.
I'm on the way up from hell,
With the devil nipping at my heels.
The darkness will come as it always does,
But I grow stronger every day.
My faith is different in these times,
And I've taken up my sword and shield.
My eyes are full of twinkling stars
And the whole world is my sky.
#love
#addiction
#healing
111 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
22nd Aug 2022 1:39am
22nd Aug 2022 1:39am
Now What
The bar is literally on the floor.
Now what?
They're proud I'm sober
And glad I'm a better mom.
Now what?
I keep a job
And somewhat keep house.
My mind is a sewer
Filling up with doubt.
Just one more loser
That never quite got it right.
Now what?
Now what?
They're proud I'm sober
And glad I'm a better mom.
Now what?
I keep a job
And somewhat keep house.
My mind is a sewer
Filling up with doubt.
Just one more loser
That never quite got it right.
Now what?
#shame
#confusion
#despair
#emptiness
#fear
113 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
3rd Aug 2022 7:35am
3rd Aug 2022 7:35am
Toxic
My heart is a patchwork of memorabilia,
Ghostly shrines to loves come and gone.
Mismatched clothes litter my laundry
Since I've been left all alone.
Their scents still linger for me to breathe deep,
Anything to keep them forever close.
I am selfish with their memory
Even though, in the end, it was me that I chose.
Some might call me a narcissist,
But I doubt I will ever love only one.
I get drunk on love itself—the taste of their kiss;
I'd be lying if I said I was done.
Ghostly shrines to loves come and gone.
Mismatched clothes litter my laundry
Since I've been left all alone.
Their scents still linger for me to breathe deep,
Anything to keep them forever close.
I am selfish with their memory
Even though, in the end, it was me that I chose.
Some might call me a narcissist,
But I doubt I will ever love only one.
I get drunk on love itself—the taste of their kiss;
I'd be lying if I said I was done.
#love
#lust
#war
#crush
#rebellion
165 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
29th Jul 2022 6:12am
29th Jul 2022 6:12am
Cravings
I feel the mania creeping in
With its skin chilling whisper,
Lips brushing my ear.
Wild eyes glitter
As an old familiar smile
Spreads across my face.
I am euphoric.
Too much caffeine
And not enough sleep
Fuels my nicotine spiked
Anxiety trip.
My mind replays
Flashes of today's wonders—
Finding shapes in clouds,
Sweet milestones of motherhood,
And the smile
On my wild child's face.
Like thunder rumbling
In the distance,
Old cravings threaten
Months of progress, ...
With its skin chilling whisper,
Lips brushing my ear.
Wild eyes glitter
As an old familiar smile
Spreads across my face.
I am euphoric.
Too much caffeine
And not enough sleep
Fuels my nicotine spiked
Anxiety trip.
My mind replays
Flashes of today's wonders—
Finding shapes in clouds,
Sweet milestones of motherhood,
And the smile
On my wild child's face.
Like thunder rumbling
In the distance,
Old cravings threaten
Months of progress, ...
#motherhood
#childhood
#drugs
#memories
#addiction
253 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
24th Jun 2022 8:26am
24th Jun 2022 8:26am
Drinky Drink
When vodka calls,
I scream your name.
In every drunken rant,
You hang on my lips.
That dreaded vulnerable moment
Rises to the surface
In a way all the walls I've built
Cannot possibly surpass.
You linger in my heart
Long after you've gone away.
I am forever tainted
By the touch of your skin
And the way you called my demons by name.
Find me when your journey of solitude is done
And your inner voice speaks again.
I still believe you're the only one
Who ever knew me.
I scream your name.
In every drunken rant,
You hang on my lips.
That dreaded vulnerable moment
Rises to the surface
In a way all the walls I've built
Cannot possibly surpass.
You linger in my heart
Long after you've gone away.
I am forever tainted
By the touch of your skin
And the way you called my demons by name.
Find me when your journey of solitude is done
And your inner voice speaks again.
I still believe you're the only one
Who ever knew me.
#love
148 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
19th Jun 2022 7:32am
19th Jun 2022 7:32am
Just One More Day
The static in my head
Has been replaced by the sounds
Of roaring inadequacies.
Small triumphs seem overshadowed
By every day tribulations
To no end in sight.
Blind faith seems the hardest of all
When every plan and anxious obsession
Has failed me again and again.
I am so small
And so tired.
My tears seem to fall unseen and unheard
As I stare into the darkness
And remind myself of all I've overcome.
The silence stares back at me
With an unyielding gaze
That tells me I have to keep going.
One...
Has been replaced by the sounds
Of roaring inadequacies.
Small triumphs seem overshadowed
By every day tribulations
To no end in sight.
Blind faith seems the hardest of all
When every plan and anxious obsession
Has failed me again and again.
I am so small
And so tired.
My tears seem to fall unseen and unheard
As I stare into the darkness
And remind myself of all I've overcome.
The silence stares back at me
With an unyielding gaze
That tells me I have to keep going.
One...
#hope
#LifeStruggles
#faith
#addiction
#redemption
180 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
13th Jun 2022 2:56am
13th Jun 2022 2:56am
Deteriorating
A shamed grimace in the mirror
After spitting out blood
From days of neglect.
My skin is horrid and yellow,
And my eyes hold only death.
I used to be so beautiful,
At least on the outside.
Now it seems I've been turned
Inside out,
With all my ugliest parts
For the world to see.
After spitting out blood
From days of neglect.
My skin is horrid and yellow,
And my eyes hold only death.
I used to be so beautiful,
At least on the outside.
Now it seems I've been turned
Inside out,
With all my ugliest parts
For the world to see.
#anxiety
#depression
#dark
#SelfHarm
#addiction
194 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
8th Jun 2022 10:41am
8th Jun 2022 10:41am
Karma
How quickly the tables turn,
And oh! How it makes me squirm!
A million eyes pointed at me,
Accompanied by a tightness in my chest:
Conviction gripping me mercilessly.
I've seen this play out before—
Once from the other side,
And neither have been that pleasant.
And oh! How it makes me squirm!
A million eyes pointed at me,
Accompanied by a tightness in my chest:
Conviction gripping me mercilessly.
I've seen this play out before—
Once from the other side,
And neither have been that pleasant.
#anxiety
#LifeChangingMoment
#LifeCycle #karma
#LifeCycle #karma
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