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wet blanket
I like you
and I think we could be friends
but I don't know how to navigate
these social situations
when my head is a wet blanket
of despair
Did I miss my moment of connection?
Did I lose time being locked away
in self imposed sanctuary for a day
or a week
or an hour too long?
I try reaching
but in my head I've already failed
to find room at a table that's filled
with all the things I'm lacking
Can you see the sadness beyond my smile?
It hurts to lie
to wear that mask of social proprietary
but it hurts more to let you see my darkness
so you can fill me with hollow
meaningless words
Or so I assume
I don't know you well enough
to know if you'd love me
through the darkness in my head
I like you
and I think we could be friends
but I don't know how to navigate
these social situations
when my head is a wet blanket
of despair
© Indie Adams 2022
and I think we could be friends
but I don't know how to navigate
these social situations
when my head is a wet blanket
of despair
Did I miss my moment of connection?
Did I lose time being locked away
in self imposed sanctuary for a day
or a week
or an hour too long?
I try reaching
but in my head I've already failed
to find room at a table that's filled
with all the things I'm lacking
Can you see the sadness beyond my smile?
It hurts to lie
to wear that mask of social proprietary
but it hurts more to let you see my darkness
so you can fill me with hollow
meaningless words
Or so I assume
I don't know you well enough
to know if you'd love me
through the darkness in my head
I like you
and I think we could be friends
but I don't know how to navigate
these social situations
when my head is a wet blanket
of despair
© Indie Adams 2022
Published 2nd Mar 2022
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2nd Mar 2022 1:28am
2nd Mar 2022 1:53am
Social situations are never easy to deal with. Seems that some people have the magical touch....others not. I do hope you find your footing soon. Kisses, Robert.
2nd Mar 2022 8:35am
You illustrate the dilemma of the tug between the human desire to relate and the fearful question 'Am I acceptable enough for you?' that some depressive subjects have.
I would say reach out, obviously not to people who have shown they could not cope. Sometimes people are more generous with their ears than they might appear to be (I speak from experience of being reached out to myself).A person new to your acquaintance might be a revelation and have experiences of their own that have exercised their acceptance abilities.
I would say reach out, obviously not to people who have shown they could not cope. Sometimes people are more generous with their ears than they might appear to be (I speak from experience of being reached out to myself).A person new to your acquaintance might be a revelation and have experiences of their own that have exercised their acceptance abilities.
2nd Mar 2022 1:38pm
It's a skill we're all a bit out of practice with,considering the times we live in. One step at a time. The tortoise always wins the race. Feel out the friendly waters and warm yourself! I wish you, an eventual connection in the days ahead, Good luck and a gentle reminder that we all experience this anxiety, in different ways/levels.... so it's kind of like we're all in it together!!
Wonderfully poeted-💙
🌹 - B
Wonderfully poeted-💙
🌹 - B
3rd Mar 2022 2:32am
4th Mar 2022 4:03am
Personal honesty is the best kind of intimacy. Dark is not off putting when it's a part of one's character.
Being shut down is an obstacle boundary, but being open about it is invitational.
This piece has an interesting underbelly that counter moves self-sabotage. As long as we allow others to see us and don't reject our being accepted it's a shy opening with promise.
I have a close friend who allows moments of openness but is so fearful of rejection that she throws up a barbed wire electric fence whenever we see each other. She's as dear a person as you could ever meet, 10 days a month. The rest of the time she's as spiny as an urchin. I enjoy her company ever so much, and yet I can only really handle a few days. It's heart breaking. So, I think that intimacy is very tough fo some people. They have to give themselves permission. Your writing brought up a lot of things for me. Thank you. Darkness can be its own kind of light.
Being shut down is an obstacle boundary, but being open about it is invitational.
This piece has an interesting underbelly that counter moves self-sabotage. As long as we allow others to see us and don't reject our being accepted it's a shy opening with promise.
I have a close friend who allows moments of openness but is so fearful of rejection that she throws up a barbed wire electric fence whenever we see each other. She's as dear a person as you could ever meet, 10 days a month. The rest of the time she's as spiny as an urchin. I enjoy her company ever so much, and yet I can only really handle a few days. It's heart breaking. So, I think that intimacy is very tough fo some people. They have to give themselves permission. Your writing brought up a lot of things for me. Thank you. Darkness can be its own kind of light.
