If you can't love you can't hurt

I'm so terribly bored  
To the point, I have started entertaining the idea of falling in love  
With who I don’t know  
I was hoping to find someone  
Anyone I liked, really  
I wasn’t overly picky    
Or so I thought    
but I couldn’t find anybody    
No match was ever right for me  
   
I told myself that these things take time  
You can’t force feelings to come  
You can fall in love just be patient  
You know u can, I lied to myself  
But to no avail  
No matter how much time I spared no love was ever there  
   
I tried to force it  
Make myself feel    
I gave so many people a chance    
I wanted to love  
And to be loved in return  
But I guess I’ll never love as much as I had loved in the past  
   
I don’t love this person anymore  
And I'm thankful for that  
They’re not good anymore  
Definitely not worth my love  
I’m glad that I had moved on  
   
I just feel like I had wasted all of my love on them  
And there's nothing I can do to get it back  
There is no more falling for me  
Not in this lifetime at least  
 
No more such bubbly feelings  
Blind adoration    
Complete infatuation    
There is nothing of the sort here    
Just me and my hopeless, impossible dreams  
   
I feel like I’ve loved so much in such a short time that I've used up all the love that I had  
I’ll never ever love again  
And that notion hurts at night  
Because it might mean I'll never be loved like I once was
But that’s okay  
There are some good things about that  
Like never getting hurt again