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Rambling Mind
Fighting what I see as inadequacies
I run from the real and dance with my lies
Joyous in every single untruth revealed by me
I can't stand to sit still with myself
Knowing I'm not telling me my own truth
Wallowing in the sea of incidentalism
Can anything shake this sense of remorse
Never painted, never drawn, never shared
Why then does my frown cover
The entirety of my soul
Why do these Three Little Birds
Continue to issue such empty promises
The air I breathe is said to be free
But why then has it cost me my life
Memories devoured by birds of regret
Constantly counting me one of their flock
As I sit here alone in my room
Carrying conversations with long-dead thoughts
Is there some philosophical point to this all
Or am I just living the projection I've created
Is there meaning to the pain I've caused
A table of Contents would help me now
When I kneel here and pray to the Gods
Will their answer be to tune in next week?
I run from the real and dance with my lies
Joyous in every single untruth revealed by me
I can't stand to sit still with myself
Knowing I'm not telling me my own truth
Wallowing in the sea of incidentalism
Can anything shake this sense of remorse
Never painted, never drawn, never shared
Why then does my frown cover
The entirety of my soul
Why do these Three Little Birds
Continue to issue such empty promises
The air I breathe is said to be free
But why then has it cost me my life
Memories devoured by birds of regret
Constantly counting me one of their flock
As I sit here alone in my room
Carrying conversations with long-dead thoughts
Is there some philosophical point to this all
Or am I just living the projection I've created
Is there meaning to the pain I've caused
A table of Contents would help me now
When I kneel here and pray to the Gods
Will their answer be to tune in next week?
Published 24th Feb 2022
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Dear M,
Your poem sums up wonderfully the human condition. The prayerful pondering is really relatable and I appreciate that.
Great write. H🌷
Your poem sums up wonderfully the human condition. The prayerful pondering is really relatable and I appreciate that.
Great write. H🌷
24th Feb 2022 10:53pm
Thank you for your comment. I have not felt like a part of a community for a long time, but I think I might have found a place in which I feel like I belong.
Hey there, Michael :)
I too, found that I have struggled (still do at times) with questioning myself and with some very deep thoughts that tend to really swirl and burrow deep. I have learned over the years that harboring regret only festers my emotions to become extremely toxic, in the end. I now process that feeling of regret by find a way to forgive the circumstances that created it either by doing so tangibly or mentally (usually by meditation) It definitely is difficult at first but totally worth it. Letting go of all that, putting it 'in it's proper place', allows for needed growth and a true sense of freedom from some serious self 'tyranny'... lol...(at least for me it did!)
Your piece reminded of that hard fought for and learned skill and I felt a similar/kindred nature of emotional turmoil within your piece that I can absolutely empathize with.
(Just my thoughts that presented upon reading.)
I enjoyed the honest and candid way you professed your various struggles.. So nicely poeted!! 👌🏻
Thank you for sharing that with us 🙏🏻
Welcome to DUP!
I hope that you enjoy your time here -
Warm regards,
🌹-💙
B
I too, found that I have struggled (still do at times) with questioning myself and with some very deep thoughts that tend to really swirl and burrow deep. I have learned over the years that harboring regret only festers my emotions to become extremely toxic, in the end. I now process that feeling of regret by find a way to forgive the circumstances that created it either by doing so tangibly or mentally (usually by meditation) It definitely is difficult at first but totally worth it. Letting go of all that, putting it 'in it's proper place', allows for needed growth and a true sense of freedom from some serious self 'tyranny'... lol...(at least for me it did!)
Your piece reminded of that hard fought for and learned skill and I felt a similar/kindred nature of emotional turmoil within your piece that I can absolutely empathize with.
(Just my thoughts that presented upon reading.)
I enjoyed the honest and candid way you professed your various struggles.. So nicely poeted!! 👌🏻
Thank you for sharing that with us 🙏🏻
Welcome to DUP!
I hope that you enjoy your time here -
Warm regards,
🌹-💙
B
24th Feb 2022 11:01pm
Thank you for your insight. I appreciate the sharing from your life. I have fought long and hard to be able to process my doubts and darker emotions in a more healthy way, because you are right, I had let a lot of stuff in the past fester and become toxic. I am known, in my life now, as the person that helps others through their darker moments because I am able to relate to the people who are experiencing them. That has been the most therapeutic action I have personally been able to do to make sense of my life. I live in a dangerous neighborhood where bad things happen daily, and I have found that my life goal is to have fond memories and to have brought fond memories to those around me because I don't want to live with any more regrets than I already have accumulated in this lifetime. So I live my day like it's the last chance to make someone smile and feel seen and heard and appreciated.
24th Feb 2022 8:12pm
