Smile : )

What am I?
 
I can not be human
I am not seen as one of them
I can not fit in with the whole of them
I step briefly in the circles but cast away
Once they see my differences aline against them
 
Why do my words stay so strong?
 
When I am kind people take it as weakness and then take advantage  
 
When I am stern and Truthful I am a hateful bitch
 
When I state my opinion no one listens
 
Tell me what I can not hear
 
Show me what I am blinded by
 
Cry with me when I cry on my bathroom floor
 
The only place I can find peace to contemplate my day and  
 
Why I am sad
 
 
Why I feel guilty for it?
 
Why I force myself to smile
 
When I am happy it last a short while
 
Why can I not be like them all
 
And adored
 
And asked
 If
       Im
             Ok
 
 
That is all I ever do
 
 
 
Make sure they are alright  
 
 
 
Make sure to say hello
  
 
Make sure to smile
 
 
 
Smile again
 
 
 
 
Never hear the words  
 
 
 
R
 
U
 
O
 
K
 
?
 
 
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