Before I Leave Home prt 1

I feel like im preparing to die alone
Forever bymyself
Even in a crowded room
with a childish doom of others
suspicious
like a cheating lover
Paranoia it captures me
And leaves me under covers
Bound and gagged
This feelings driven me mad
It's sad really
Niggas talk love and loyalty
But nobody believes it
Everyone wants to get over
And doesn't even bother to conceal it
I do my fair share of dirt and remorse is not a feeling
It's all about a dollar so why don't we stop pretending
Thats why I have decided to just do my own thing
I'm going to chase this money and get an education
I got the lesson Im gonna get to steppin
I ain't stressing this situation
Fuck what everybody saying
It's just some form of hating
I even got to watch what I'm contemplating
Drama I'm not about it
So don't bring it here