My pain

Pain day in day out,
Not a moment of peace,
I wished it would just cease,
Whether it's in my mind
Or Physically it's just intertwine,
Just so tired,
All I have known is pain,
And I am just so drained,
Wishing someone to fix me,
Mentally and physically,
It's laughable,
Because I know that they never will,
Doctors rather just give you a pill,
Make your body addicted,
So then you are just so afflicted,
Then chaos erupts,
And your mind is corrupt,
By what they say will help,
By those pills they give,
Both physically and mentally,
Flash backs drive you mad,
Oh isn't so bad,
Put on your mask,
You have a task,
Move through the days
Like you have a life,
An at night when all alone,
Cry and fight those demons at Bay,
I am tired of the pain,
Tired of being so drained,
But I am still surviving,
Not quite thriving,
Moving forward because that is the only path,
Keep going through surgeries,
Keep going through being a pin cushion,
Because I refuse to give up,
I know that one day I will find happiness, peace and no longer hurt as bad,
Even in the darkest of night there is light