Trapped

Helplessly I wonder from wall to wall.
Wondering when each will finally fall.
All I can do is think and hate, hate
myself for causeing my own fate.
Why do I do this to myself. I must
be crazy, will I go to hell?

I pace and pace like a lion in a cage.
Waiting to hear what I don't want to hear.
All I can do is shed a tear.

Fearing the outcome could change my life,
all I wanted to do was be a good mother
and wife.
I need to sleep which causes me to dream.
Dream of what might happen to me, just to
wake up in cold sweets.
Now my hair is soaked with perspiration,
dripping with fear.
Oh Lord, please help me get away from here.

I try to stay calm but my blood rushes fast.
Causing me to feel like I just ran a mile and a half.
As anxiety builds more and more.
All I can do is just cry on the floor.

Why do I do such stupid things?
It's like someone else not me has me on a puppet string.

So with in these walls I'll sit and wait.
Till the judge tells me what will be my final
fate