"non-domesticated" creature of habit

      
     
     
    in short; mountain climb without safety belt; why one's eyes can't help but decide to meet every other angle of an "enclosure" at a moment one resides      
     
     
   it's indeed complicated to gamble with one's only pair of dice on the line.... been a "fool" one too many times with little to no effort testing "boundary lines"      
     
     
wanting "special attention" without backlash from making the wrong decision; one's not the type, that has a "vision" nor soars no where near "highest in the sky"      
     
     
 just an ol fashioned appitite; self medication helps wash that out most times.... terrible at hellos; it's as if one's a "natural" at "goodbyes" (or no comment for that matter)  
 
 
chilling, while bracing self for if or when the "apocalypse" arrives....(or further becomes evident). i don't belong here.