depression expression

 
 
    where's that fix that locks the door; not sure if I can take no more; this seesaw life of back & forth; feel like an old man on a porch....  
 
  I yearn that easy does it, every now and then; that guarantees that sleep that seemingly never ends;  
 
I'm so tired....I'm so fucking tired....  
 
i just want to sleep; why must people make this life "so deep"  
 
one shot and drop, is what I need-to put me out my misery;  
I just want to go with ease; my mental feels so much dis-ease....  
 
 
 I want to pack my faculties, and put them away while I'm still "me";  
while I still have my sanity;  
i want to set my "spirit" "free"  
 
 
 words.... I'm tired of the ones I speak; that push and pull for clarity....  
 
 
 this body still fighting to stay alive; while my mind feels on decline....