ache

 
maneuvering the blues
shuffle, repeat sad song
the vodka notes ringing in my ears
thoughts of melancholy linger

inside my solemn silence
I quietly keen within
holding myself tightly
lest it spill over into reality
drowning me in sorrow

blue in the unknown
I don't know what makes me sad
listlessly I look at the world
sometimes feeling too much
sometimes nothing at all

my soul longs to belong
I'm alone in my sin
paying penance for being different

ache in the cold light
drink down the feelings at midnight
wake up, shuffle, and repeat