sacred

 
reaching into the sacred kingdom with a vow
I enter solemnly a song in my heart
I fear I am different than most beings
I've searched high and low
finding none like you beautiful Alpha

in my dark days I challenged you
mocking the order of valor
silently I keen within my soul
to be something of value
secretly I seek
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how did I wander so far?

with the need to fit knowing somehow I would not
I am nothing more than the some of my parts
a little mischief a little tyrant I'd hoped to be more mature by now

I've awoken hopeful but shaken
my mind ravaged I wonder is that the truth of the woman I am?
if that is the truth then what is it I must do to alter my course?

one vessel fitted for honor one for nefarious deeds
I wonder after Judas did he find heaven after the role he was to play?
will my spirit wander for naught?

tarrying in the field to long
a vessel fit for destruction