I PLANNED MY EXIT

Today depression welcomes me, another day, another excuse to fantasise being free.
I look in the mirror and witness my escape, I planned my exit, how much more can I take.

I plan it out in every single detail, do I jump or hang, do I pull the trigger, bang!
Seeking refuge from an online commute, human devils convince me to carry out my pursuit. Their not many angel’s there! I fell in to the fear loop! It's hard to find true human empathy when my demons weigh out my curiosity.

I planned my exit, doubt still lingers my mind, what if it all goes wrong, will it hurt if it doesn’t go to plan, how many pills do I need to escape my torment! will I end up half dead, as my body survived my impulse death thread.

I planned my exit, I just can’t take it anymore, being bullied, paying the bills, not fitting in, being misunderstood, my emotions confused! I’m teased, yes I’m different, manifest mentality draining, you only hear complaining! I scream out inside, sticks and stones may break my bones, and yes your words really do hurt me! In this status of society rat race illusion infinity.

I planned my exit fighting hope and fear, hope to find a solution, family and friends can’t hear! Only darkness wishes to be my pillow crying daily tear, am I selfish, should I suffer just to keep genetics combined, let me fantasise my funeral, soon my freedom gate will open wide.

I planned my exit, common number in my bank account is best friends with 0, where is my hero? a life coach, shrink psychology, a Doctor prescribes me a concoction of super villain, addictions given suicide hidden convincing me!

Crazy world!

I plan for government exit! we are treated as animal monkey’s being led by lunatic junkies, reflecting their flare as we follow in slave recruit, but no one dare, just stand, and stare, as they dictate our depopulation control your mute!

Spiritual war at every door, the fundamental plan is evolution shouldn’t fall! as why should we plan our exit? Bond together human intellect, warriors rise, the fallen step aside, choose your side. Caged bird prison flesh, my emotions fear I’m daily supressed, or love believes the will to proceed, remember our creator, and a new life of authority will have the power to succeed!