Saint Beaumont

I can't explain it. Questions deep
I'm looking in your heart
But I can feel it
3000 miles and they're all to blame
Last night I felt it
The world is falling down on me
I must admit it
That I'm fractured from the guilt
Of all these past transgressions

I know the pain ultimately it's real
The sun was shining
Obstacles around me they swim
Never knowing
That I feel like life isn't real
I smell the sour
Melting paint off the walls
Watching the drunkard and clown
Is she for real

Me I'm burning with an ideation
Poetical magic sureal
It feeds the hunger
Like this room without windows
Loneliness my keel
Wicked world captivates my truth
Sometimes living is just dying
When I see others around me
Living in their own passion

Next to me
The junkie screams
Pain and sorrow - no one listens
Except the demons
Running circles in his mind
But who's to blame in this world
It doesn't make much sense to me
I'm I aggressive
Aggressive towards me

Father why do you haunt me still
Innocent sister so niave
My mother
The lady in the clouds
Tears of kindness softly kill
They strike like thunder
I'm not imagining the drama
I swear my God it's real
Overwhelming it poisons my soul

The others I won't mention
I'm finally learning
Close my eyes and block them out
But the past six years
Have nearly got me killed
Sometimes I feel like nothing
Sometimes worthless still
Iam praying to Saint Beaumont
Man get me out of here