Feelings About Thoughts

       
                 
                 
My mind hosts a compendium of thoughts
Jesus! I dont know where to begin?!
As soon as I lay one thought to rest
Another one just muscles it's way in..
They're tireless but me? I'm knackered...!
Tired way way way beyond belief...
Thoughts in my head keep me awake all night
And all I want is a little relief!

Maybe if I try to ignore them?
Nah! How could I? They're all about you!
Perhaps I could fool them into believing
That that's it! And I know what to do!
A'ha! That could be the answer?
Pretend it's all in my mind so it sounds true,
That loving you is impossible???
Truth is, its impossible to not fall for you!

I've got it guys! Black out blinds for brains
I can lock my thoughts and feelings up in total darkness,
Haha! I got them where I want them now!
No light so they simply cant harness..
But then my compendium of thoughts will disappear.
And all the images in my head are about you..!
Fuck sake, back to the drawing board I think
It's obvious I haven't thought this through..

I'll take up art, learn to play the piano
Anything to take my mind far away
Maybe I'll learn how to ride a horse?
That's a good way to spend a dull day...
Or maybe I should just address what's in my head?
Maybe I should let it all run free?
One things for sure, 100%
There's no one more confused now than me...

Anyway sleep is over rated I think?
Or could it be that it's playing games on me?
This compendium in my head is no game I'll tell you!
There's no dice in there to set my brain free...
So I guess I'm going to learn to live with this
At least til I figure out what I should do..
Funnily enough, the answers right there before me...
Every single time I look at you... xxxx