my heart is big enough... is yours?

 


... then
an admittance
those long talks
mutual shoulders lent
writings shared
and our friendship
that blossomed, beautiful

were muddled with
those emotions
ones of the unexpected
nor really wanting

ones intense in their unforgiving
and all consuming

because I get it
I do get it

which is why
this friendship
was so easy
to begin with

now
it's silence
from every direction
going from sixty to zero
nothingness in black
an absence wholly felt
I kill myself with quiet

...is it when I said,
let's go slow?

or maybe I didn't explain
 well enough
my darling,
my cherished friend
of how I won't ever lose you
not ever

my imagination
can't even begin
to fathom
a life forward,
without you in it

it IS your goat
your unique viewpoints
making me laugh
purely by accident
having my back
always and always

this can't be
how we end
my own goat, now refuses
because I know...

my heart is big enough—
            is yours?