Sorry

I'm hurting all those
who care about
me.
I'm not sure
how
and i'm not trying
to.
But...i always
hurt the people
i care most about.

I'm sad.
No, it is not
your fault.
It's not anyone's
fault
but my own.
Why i'm sad?
not sure.
I just get
depressed and
you can always
tell when i'm
upset.

I wish you couldn't
but you can.
I'm making you
sad, hurting you.
without trying to
making you think
my sadness is your fault
when it's not.
that you are not good enough
when you are.

I'm causing you all this pain
and i don't want to.
You're blaming yourself
and i'm tired of it.
I'm tired of just
randomly being
depressed and i wish
i could just be
happy...