What I want

Man I'm tired of meeting people
Trying to learn
I know what I want
I know for what I yearn.

And damn am I tired
Of trying to find
Tidbits of what I need
Pushing my bottom line

What I want...
I want a go getter thats like me
I want someone who goes after what they need
I want someone not scared to show how much they want me
Show it
Not just express how they find me lovely

How I light they're life
How I'm different from the rest
I want to form that opinion
About someone that matches my best

Or maybe even more
But I'm a train on fire riding into town
With a single fire truck as the only way to dowse

When I find a man I like
They're a temporary fix
They never live up
To my intellect and compassionate mix

Is it too much to ask
For honesty in touch
For honesty in talk
For honesty in what you want

Is it tough to ask
For fun and a good time
For one to think of me all the time
To reciprocate what I shine

If I give you a kiss
Or decide to give myself to one
Its not a small thing
Yet I did it recently and he's not the one

Doesn't think off me all day
Doesnt show he wants my time
Its always a late night combine
By which he's falling asleep so why try

The other thinks I'm a fool
Uses lies as romantic tools
And I'm empty when it comes to him
I don't care either way what happens
It may seem cruel

But my husband
Wants me more and more
Hes missing me
Like never before

Showing he wants to make it work
Fighting to win me even though I have a lover
Yet my lover acts like any other friend
If he texts its cause I haven't done so first in the end

But I want to cause he's on my mind all the time
Its not reciprocated and I know it isn't right

Honestly
What I want
Is to be alone
Stop being disappointed
Just accept
That for me there is no home.