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Epiphanies are a Bitch
Forever isn’t as long
as we wish until
we believe it to be;
the days fly by
~ the city landscape,
50 mph at 2 am ~
the details get fuzzy
as the days blur on,
one into the next
stormy clouds,
reflected
in rain-soaked
pavement
love is a tricky thing
when we are young,
our self-preservation
takes a right fine shit
on every good thing
we ever attempt;
we’ve just learn’t the world
is painful
holy shit, I’m never doing that again
...until we do,
except now we’re afraid ~
holding the truest parts
of ourselves just out of reach,
higher yet
until we can’t reach them
ourselves
but then there comes
that proper reckoning ~
the true accounting
of our pain,
and how much
of that
we are
responsible
for
that’s a rough moment, goddamn
from that well of
realization
comes shame,
those of us
conditioned
to believe
we deserve
all that self-loathing
if we are willing,
and able to contain
our damage
(we all got a dose, baby)
we will find a way
to grasp
acceptance
I was today years old
when I found that place.
the deeper water exists,
where acceptance
becomes
hope
if we can accept
our broken bits,
we are free
to accept others’ ~
our own shards have cut deep,
and our flesh has been scarred;
we’ve all been someone’s
collateral damage,
and we’ve all left our share
of bodies in the pile
nothing left to hide,
there is no need for pretend;
we are finally ourselves,
whatever that happens
to be
as we wish until
we believe it to be;
the days fly by
~ the city landscape,
50 mph at 2 am ~
the details get fuzzy
as the days blur on,
one into the next
stormy clouds,
reflected
in rain-soaked
pavement
love is a tricky thing
when we are young,
our self-preservation
takes a right fine shit
on every good thing
we ever attempt;
we’ve just learn’t the world
is painful
holy shit, I’m never doing that again
...until we do,
except now we’re afraid ~
holding the truest parts
of ourselves just out of reach,
higher yet
until we can’t reach them
ourselves
but then there comes
that proper reckoning ~
the true accounting
of our pain,
and how much
of that
we are
responsible
for
that’s a rough moment, goddamn
from that well of
realization
comes shame,
those of us
conditioned
to believe
we deserve
all that self-loathing
if we are willing,
and able to contain
our damage
(we all got a dose, baby)
we will find a way
to grasp
acceptance
I was today years old
when I found that place.
the deeper water exists,
where acceptance
becomes
hope
if we can accept
our broken bits,
we are free
to accept others’ ~
our own shards have cut deep,
and our flesh has been scarred;
we’ve all been someone’s
collateral damage,
and we’ve all left our share
of bodies in the pile
nothing left to hide,
there is no need for pretend;
we are finally ourselves,
whatever that happens
to be
Published 25th Nov 2020
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Anonymous
- Edited 25th Nov 2020 12:22pm
25th Nov 2020 12:16pm
It's easier to have epiphanies after cleaning our windows of perception. Just as you can judge more clearly what is outside, so too can you see inside yourself. Such comes as a reward for your efforts and lasts the rest of your lifetime, while the pain of personal revelation is temporary and fades.
I like to think of Ephiphanies as Greek goddesses similar to the Muses coming to our aid and benefit, so bitches kinda works for me LOL.
Another brave and great write, Luna.
I like to think of Ephiphanies as Greek goddesses similar to the Muses coming to our aid and benefit, so bitches kinda works for me LOL.
Another brave and great write, Luna.
25th Nov 2020 5:30pm
I used to wonder why no one warned me that getting older comes with so many hard lessons, but then I realized one of the biggest epiphanies there is belongs to getting older and realizing they did warn you but you had to learn it all the hard way, regardless lol.
And yeah, bitches definitely works for me - those damned epiphanies never show up gently or quietly. Ultimately for our own good, sure. But the left hook they’re packing catches me out of nowhere every time 😅.
Thank you, Johnny 💜
And yeah, bitches definitely works for me - those damned epiphanies never show up gently or quietly. Ultimately for our own good, sure. But the left hook they’re packing catches me out of nowhere every time 😅.
Thank you, Johnny 💜
25th Nov 2020 1:13pm
I love a good epiphany. That moment when the lightbulb comes on and you sit back like, ohhh, I see it. Never is it a waste.
Terrific piece, Luna.
Terrific piece, Luna.
25th Nov 2020 5:32pm
Never a waste. I’m working on adopting the attitude that as long as I’m breathing, it’s never too late to learn. Thank you so much, Eerie 💜.
25th Nov 2020 4:14pm
luna! i know i've been a little bit of a scarce poster and commenter.
BUT I STILL AM PRESIDENT OF THE LUNAGREYHAWK FAN CLUB! and goodness! this one is stellar. you have such an easy tone. it's insistent and firm but gentle all at the same time. so well done.
BUT I STILL AM PRESIDENT OF THE LUNAGREYHAWK FAN CLUB! and goodness! this one is stellar. you have such an easy tone. it's insistent and firm but gentle all at the same time. so well done.
25th Nov 2020 5:36pm
Thank you so much, Daisy. I just got back from reading your latest - maybe we can get a deal on dual fan club t-shirts 🤩💜!
Anonymous
- Edited 24th Dec 2020 7:45am
25th Nov 2020 8:45pm
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27th Nov 2020 5:30am
26th Nov 2020 00:13am
Beautiful courage of candor, rendered with control in pace and meter, full of genuine feeling. Beautiful work. 💖🙏🏻
27th Nov 2020 5:31am
I have always viewed epiphanies as a reward of instant knowledge ( vs instant karma ), and indication that you have learned a life lesson. They were one of the seven answers I received this week in regards to what fuels and lights me up. I love them, although they can be painful in what they reveal. Especially the epihanies referencing ourselves.
Wonderfully introspective work, Luna.
Wonderfully introspective work, Luna.
27th Nov 2020 5:32am
I like to think the harder the impact, the harder the realizations stick. Thank you so much for your insight, Ahavati 💜
26th Nov 2020 10:32am
Dear L,
Epiphanies. Most seem to hurt like a really deep paper cut and take forever to heal up. Mine do at any rate but I could never be accused of being a quick learner which is probably why life lessons hurt so long. I’m glad of those epiphanies though. There’s a satisfaction I can’t put words to when they happen. But you did and those words are immensely fantastic and very meaningful.
H🌷
Epiphanies. Most seem to hurt like a really deep paper cut and take forever to heal up. Mine do at any rate but I could never be accused of being a quick learner which is probably why life lessons hurt so long. I’m glad of those epiphanies though. There’s a satisfaction I can’t put words to when they happen. But you did and those words are immensely fantastic and very meaningful.
H🌷
27th Nov 2020 5:33am
...and a bit of relief, too, I think. I appreciate your support so much, thank you Honoria 💜
27th Nov 2020 2:26am
Life is such a collection of self discovery signposts
Speaking of which, you’d be so much fun to take a road trip with
Speaking of which, you’d be so much fun to take a road trip with
27th Nov 2020 5:34am
