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   honestly; the introvert in me wants to stay underneath the warm cozy sheets;  
 
 then nothing "negative" could happen potentially; there's no question who's the intermediate family "blacksheep";  
 
sure I made it clear where today I would be; yet I woke up with that "stay home" tendacy;  
 
just want to go back to sleep; honestly; I know how I feel I'd like things to be; yet that's only in my dreams....  
 
because if I've learned nothing else in this life-i've learned that ANYTHING worth having would very likely sadly "disturb/test that little inner peace" you do have....  
 
and I've long been tired, weak out of energy; with my ongoing depressive mentality....