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my heart is my own

my shoulder is not
for you to cry on

you lost that right
think to that night

i begged for your
undivided attention

or was that for
someone you
never mentioned

maybe they were
just a friend

a distraction
from the pain
to my face
you append

but that still
wonít mend
 
the shock
the pain
the hurt
the disdain

a day after
you left me

you ran to another jane

how would you
feel if i
had done the same

did you think
for a second

about the ways
it could hurt me

the ways
it could haunt me

the ways
it could make me

hate the skin
that iím in

hate my face
hate my body

disembody

me from who i am

i guess i was not
enough for you

this distance was just
too much for you

too much
to handle

you needed another
pretty face
to light
your candle

but i guess
they are not
as bright a flame

how would you
feel if i
had done the same

if i had tried
to replace
you with
another face

i could never
even fathom of
such a disgrace

but i have to
move on

i have to go
my own way

and thatís okay

maybe one day
i can forget

all the pain
that i felt

maybe one day
i can forgive you

you donít
belong to me

i donít
belong to you

we donít speak anymore
and thatís my choice

youíve taken for granted
the sound of my voice

you canít leave
a love behind

and expect to
just hit rewind

when you end
a love
you take a risk

are we friends
or foes
or strangers
that have kissed

but how can i
invite you back

as a friend
or contact

itís a question
of fact

communication
was what
you lacked

i still hope one day
you find another

to make you smile
to make your
heart flutter

thank you
for helping me
find parts
of who i am

the rest i must gather
by my own two hands

before i turn to stone

i choose
to be alone

i am sick of
my heart
being taken
and thrown

i hope you
are happy

i hope you
have grown

my heart
is my own
Written by Theonlydbld (Dima D.)
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