Submissions by Theonlydbld (Dima D.)

my shoulder is not
for you to cry on

you lost that right
think to that night

i begged for your
undivided attention

or was that for
someone you
never mentioned

maybe they were
just a friend

a distraction
from the pain
to my face
you append

but that still
won’t mend

the shock
the pain
the hurt
the disdain

a day after
you left me

you ran to another jane

how would you
feel if i
had done the same
...

Wait.
I wait at the station.

Eager and curious
Filled with elation  
 
Look.
I look for you.
 
Handsome and dark
My heart races before you
 
The kindest of eyes
The warmest of smiles
 
I am ready to go with you
For miles and miles
 
I took my hand in yours
As the train opened its doors
 
“There’s room for two by the door”
At a table meant for more
 
Time flies by
As you look me in the eye
 
Take me on a joy ride
I have nothing...

Tears of indigo I wept
Countless nights, I haven’t slept

Constant thoughts of giving up
Is this truly growing up

I wipe my tears and walk away
I smile wide with disarray

Behind that smile is a broken memory
Blurry to my vision, vivid to my sensory

You handed me a glass to drink
With smiling eyes, and a lingering wink

We clinked our cups and said a cheer
Two friends were here
But one will disappear

I drifted towards a moonlit garden
As your smile began to harden

Picked up a...

You know what?
Fuck everyone else.

Fuck everyone who didn’t try to know me

Fuck everyone who assumed that they knew me

Fuck everyone who refused to accept that I would grow up
That I would love different colors from pink to blue to hot red

Fuck everyone who thought that they loved me
From infatuation to “oh she cheated on me”

From incarceration of the heart to the incarnation of a lie
I was nothing to them but the girl that stood by

The girl that was patient and paid her dues
The girl that always...