Loving You and Losing Me

I can’t take this any longer.
I guess I’m not a fighter.
Because I let loving you, lose me.
I’m not the same person, you see.

Every time I did my best to save parts of you.
I didn’t know for one part of you, I lost two.
You took and took until nothing was left.
There isn’t a single part I could have kept.

It took a lot more of me to equal you.
That’s why you’re doing what you do.
You suffocate me, please let me breathe.
You held me tight, please just let me leave.

Stop pulling me back, I don’t want to be here.
Tell me you hate me, that’s what I want to hear.
Don’t say things that’ll make me stay.
I apologize, but it has to be this way.

I can’t stay and lose my soul.
I can’t stay and lose my home.
You’re not who you were supposed to be.
You’re not who I thought, I tried to believe.

I tried to believe in you and your strength.
Why did you stand there and let me sink?
You let me drown to save yourself.
I would have given you all I had left.

But thankfully you left some parts intact.
Just enough parts for me to put on an act.
An act so no one knows how much it hurts.
Losing myself is something I didn’t deserve.