Sometimes I dont understand

I love you
thats what you say
often times these words turn
blue black and even gray
do you mean it ?
I ask myself.
Is it real ?
I cant tell
I don't understand your love
I dont get how I deserve to have you
you are the one thing that makes me smile
makes me laugh
you give me everything I don't deserve
so I don't understand
Is this what I am worth
I dont deserve your kiss's
your smiles and laughs
sometimes I dont understand
why do you love me ?
I ask myself
why do you need me
I wish you'd tell
but what I wonder the most
is why do I keep asking
if all is right why am I asking and not just enjoying it while it lasts
I'm your girl
I always will be so I'll stop asking
and understand
and maybe just maybe you wont walk away