tears and fears

 
sadness speaks and I must listen
melancholy notes on the wind
remind me who I am
a woman with visions
alone with my thoughts, I weep

the little girl inside me gives offering
her faith unshakeable
I've lost mine along the way

tears kept and guarded
keepsakes of a time I really felt something
before I became afraid

the world so daunting
once upon a time I would face it head on
pain has taught me a lot
I seem to desire what I should not

there is a teen in me who will never grow up
she likes the thugs
I know better than to desire the likes
it always ends in heartbreak

a stern taskmaster is my husband
I sometimes long for something different
an open road full of adventure
is it too late?

I wonder