Vulnerable

You move me but I try not to budge too much
despite the desires and deep yearning for your touch.
I often fantasize about feeling your arms
around me when I’m scared or needing warmth.
But I hate these feelings, it’s so damn scary
failing at stopping my heart from caring
Just when I discovered staying single was just fine
you came in, kissed my soul and changed my mind.
Even though it feels good, I can’t just drop my guard.
Still I’m wise enough to not lose you due to dwelling on my scars.
I can see us walking hand in hand, laughing, making plans.
It’s easy to grow with you because you understand.
Can you see us midday, playing in bed without a care?
Feeling you massage my neck and reach up for my hair.
I feel my armor fall. The vibration makes me queasy.
I wanna love again, don’t I? I know it won’t be easy.
I refuse to hurt my self by denying this divine connection.
It’s no coincidence how you made me change direction.
At the least, I have to see where this story leads
All I ask for is your truth, patience and loyalty.