Chasing My Imaginary Tail

At the beginning
I drank
To be cool
I drank
To be amongst my friends
I drank
To just to fit in
And then....
I drank more than my friends
They looked at me
Like I was doing the most
So I searched
For heavier drinkers
No longer friends I needed
But more like
Beggars and users
I found
So I drank
All by myself
A working drunk
I became
Leave work
Get a couple beers for the road
Then get some fifths
Before I went home
I drunk myself away
No longer trusting anyone
Not even myself
I'd wake up
After a few minutes of passing out
Grab my bottle
And instantly curse out
One hundred percent sure
Someone drunk my liquor
But only I
Occupied my home
So I started hiding
My bottles from myself
Mentally
I was definitely losing it
Spending more
On liquor I couldn't find
I drank
My sanity away
DUI's and PI's
Promising to do better
But repeating my sins
Insane
Doing the same
With the same result
Alcohol made me insane
Until I realized
I couldn't drink no more