Again Sleepless

 
[ Opening Statement ]
 
suppressed anger
self hatred
deep shame
 
because I was afraid
...of myself
 
I do not trust me
and in this climate
self sabotage prevails
 
 
 
 
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my sibling groomed me
to fulfill a disposition
that already existed
 
guilty is she, only
for continuing the
cycle of destruction
 
 
 
 
[ Closing Arguments ]
 
I turned to stone long ago
because I thought that
no one loved me
chaotic torture of my insides
the relentless nature of it
until I realized I was to blame
for my own suffering
my karma moves me forward
through time, I can’t escape
the choices that I’ve made
I continue to endure
I realized that those feelings
you know, all o’ them emotions
cannot penetrate me
with my steely doors in place
for instance,
let’s say I cut myself
hypothetically speaking
the blood is seeping, dripping
on the outside you see calm
but then I start the shiver shaking
disclosure warning: insides seething
now all the moods begin to mingle
forming a supermassive hole
bleak in nature, reeling rager
DO NOT TOUCH ME
 
 
 
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