must I say?

true for true i dont know what to say
I think more logically
than spritual
confused lost i dont give a fuck what the "book" says
if he cares why not prove it?
alought this religion Christianity sounds fun and all
is it for me?
i want something like an "overseer"(fallout reference)  to guard and/or guide me.to much? I see dont bother
useless has been my name
lazy stupid highly repulsive and further more a god hater
truth or not? you cant tell but i need to
Jews?Catholics?Christan?Muslims?Buddhists?Methodist?

all in the end to say is.....help?