Effective

Minding my business, while my minds minding me.
Tonight I am my only witness, fighting this thing inside of me.
Sorrow, depression, internal deception.
Outward aggression , a hateful expression.
Discreet enough to not turn heads,
But loud enough that I lose sleep.
I toss and turn inside my bed,
counting lies instead of sheep.
My thoughts dominating,
they pin me down and pull within.
I don't enjoy the congregating,
Here we fucking go again.
Filter wanted, sift it out.
I am haunted with all this doubt.
Too much idle time alone
Leaves me weak and blindly searching,
But I can't pick up the phone
to tell you all that I am hurting.
Grab my hand, pull me close
I might just change your perspective.
Read the rhymes that I have wrote,
They may just prove to be effective.