Repentance

I heard the message and I took it in,
I gave myself to Christ i abandoned sin
I ignored all evil i past many tests,
woke up with a happy heart giving God my best
It was so easy to walk in Jesus' light
Didn't have to struggle didn't have to fight
Then one day the devil showed his skin,
I resisted at first but then I let him win
I still talked to Jesus I still confessed my sins
I tried to pick myself up and I fell down again
I got down on my knees and prayed with all my heart
Yet I felt no peace and things got way to hard
If I could find that joy and faith I had before
I'd give anything to overcome the devil and trust Jesus even more
I'm sitting here and i'm trying to see
But somethings in my way somethings blinding me
The seed was planted in the soil but it didn't go that deep
If we're speaking parables i guess I'd be the lost sheep
Will anyone rejoice when i'm found
Good shepherd start searching now
I don't care if i'm first or if i'm last
I want a better future I don't want to be judged for my past
I don't want to be great in heaven I don't want to be a king
I'd be content carrying sandals for the next lesser being
I refuse to lose my soul to the great deceiving liar
I will be cleansed in Jesus' blood not cast in the lake of fire