Unworthy

Drifting away, sailing down the river of my own putrid piss.
Still i can't get a mutha fuckin thing done right.
Mentally fucked up beyond all sight.
My entire existence up to this point, has been pure shite.
Constantly getting screamed at.
Constantly told I'm stupid,dumb and fat.
I'm thinking, "Bitch, i know I'm fat."
Where do i go from here?
Towel to my face to dry up my many tears.
About 47 fuckin years old.
Where the fuck did all the time go?
Lord, why am i here?
Why?
Why was i born into this world of confusion and most of all this pain?
Mental anguish.
I-don't-know.
I-don't-understand.
This makes me sick to my stomach.
Daily i regurgitate for I'm agitated by the excrement called life.
These feelings i don't understand, they drag me down straight to my own hell.
At my age i shouldn't feel resentment towards living.
Death has taken most of my world away from me.
The many loved ones gone.
I may have a wife,a job,half a family.
What i don't have is my sanity.
I see no purpose for myself.
I ask the creator above, that all the time.
What's my purpose?
I don't see any purpose.
All i see is Nothingness.
Larry the lump.
Stuck in my ways, is ruining my marriage.
Ruining everything I'm in contact with.
I see myself as a soul in agony.
Feeling true pain.
P.O.S is me.
Piece of shit, it's plain to see.
Out of sight.
Out of mind.
The Nothing!!!!!!!!