In the eyes of others

Need to feel the air
need to release the feeling
what do i do?
hurting from within
really am alone!
dont know if i can do this anymore
need to feel the clouds
soaring from the pain
feathers all a tether
not really worthy will i ever be
cant stop the tears
emptyness inside
salvation where?
its not real it never was
fooling myself once more
never important enough
always hoped though
disguises on show
need a new hiding spot
wings broke
the breeze calling
inticing blowing through the feathers
its so lonely deep infestation
the cold enveloping
taking my breath away
theres truly something wrong with me
scars can be seen
damaged goods is what it is
there eyes can see
stupidity of being wanted
aware of the drama
hard work for many
will shuffle along to find my corner
can never win for loosing
not felt that love yet
the reflection of self doubt
disturbance in mind
hide the shame
wheres the beauty within
no longer makes sense........