The gaping hole of grief

You died on Monday...
And I'm so angry at the universe
For taking you away from us all
I told you once I'd give you years
That I'd trade places with you
In a single heart beat I'd take your cancer
My life seems so small in comparison
So worthless and incomparable to yours
You loved freely, fiercely to those
You decided to care about
And I lay here, my throat and eyes
Raw from my sobbing and my heart ache
Why didn't you tell me the cancer was back...
Why didn't you let me hold you up...
Why didn't you let me help in any kind of way...
Why.. why Auntie did you go
You told me once that if you went you'd be okay
That your god would welcome you home with open arms
Why... Why did cancer have to take you...
You shrunk so small... Your hands frail..
People keep telling me you're not in pain anymore
They keep telling me that you wouldn't want me sad
But you never told me to hide my emotions
I'd punch death in the face for taking you
They had no right to touch you
There is a hole in my chest... Where you were
A light in my life has been stolen
And I can't seem to keep it together
I miss you and I'm so sorry I didn't see your pain