"die and become"

roads ridden numb
felt the shiver strum
lush lips part beside
sidewalks too bright
didn't look- too shy
didn't say no goodbye
unlucky numbers bet
hushed songs slow set
trickled beads of sweat
the breath of wings
salt crusted fog stings
tears for chimney smoke
honey pot sticky stoked
lust giddy goslings
flitting off saplings
broken branches with envy
for the leaves so sunny
brushing against legs
swooning in the lakes
bubbling for air
lacking all it takes
  to just say her name
to just lay awake
wandering long worried
saw a glimpse so blurry
precious hoping to be caught
sleeping along the rocks
and highways once had sought
a hidden something, a trace
of blue light on your face
in the cars
in the stars
I thought I saw you
shot down burned blue
dust to disintegrate
black moon to fade away