Maze

I detect the darkness
draped over my soul
 still shining and forming,
bounded to strangeness still so blinding
underlying each layer..

I inspect the starkness
of this inner space
in which I make myself believe
I wasn't meant to be placed..

A shame I disgrace myself
and blame all else..

I'm hopping out of this hell though,
hoping to never dwell here or near again
but its inevitable I know
I shall return,
how long I burn and churn in the ashes
of a past and present which pass so fast
is a direct decision on my part
I've learned.

I see the demons and gods in me
possessing and guarding and guiding
I see the carnage and sacredness
sometimes swirled together
inseparable as one
leaving me stunned and sometimes bummed so I shun myself
and continue to run away selfishly
pretending helplessly..

I detect the darkness
draped over my soul
I'm still learning to not let it take control
in the most unholy of ways,
it's madness in this maze of a mind
in which I'm mesmerized and confined.