A SUBCONSCIOUS DECISION  

They say everything that you will encounter in your life, whether good or bad will have a different and deeper impact on the transformation, that makes one fully understand the subconsciousness and the depth of their own mind and heart and soul. For it is through those journeys and travels and walks, we will discover the true meaning of what it means to see through open eyes, that were once shut closed to the real reality of the truth of life for everything ain't what it seems. Even when it pertains to this thing called love, that sometimes enters into the depth of the equation sometimes even it's appearance may seem real and genuine, but yet beneath the surface it was only an orientation of an mirage that came as an illusion, carrying false hope and no dreams. But regardless of how it appeared each level of your subconsciousness, will be tested and scattered around paper thin having one question thyself, for was the love ever really real or was the situation apart of my own undoing, due to the absence of the love with no compassion or common sense not even consistency nor commitment and communications. But even then your heart and soul will be tested deeper and farther then its ever been, for you slowly begin to fault thyself laying blame at your feet even manipulating your subconsciousness to believe that you are unworthy of love and honor and devotion and respect, as that connectivity is only a mere mirage of disillusions made up from your own dreams.