Sunshine

I'm consumed with rage
I've always struggled with it
I dont think I have the courage
To keep going with this shit

I'm consumed with insecurity
It's taken over my life
I've ruined great things undoubtedly
Is the answer in this knife?

This storm is blocking the light of the sun
I've got no where to go
The end is near I think it's already begun
Shine light on me so I know
What's supposed to happen (un)
Fear has taken control
I thought I saw light but I was mistaken

Cold as the steel in my hand
I'm numbed by pain that can't be seen
I try to act normal but no one understands
I'm dog shit on the rake troublesome and unclean
A sharp pain only for a second
Maybe now I can find relief
I never wanted this to happen
But it's the only option for me

I'm gone now and I feel less pain
I am free
But I left sadness in my place
I want to live now but it's too late for me

Burning flesh and a bleeding heart
My eternal non existence
You were my sun right from the start
I wish I would have seen this