reality break...my apologies

 
dearest poets this letter is a little late in the coming
but I wanted to share my regrets for poems I posted in the previous months
I have bipolar with psychotic episodes
it's been a long time since I've had such a terrible break with reality
but it happened again and to my dismay, I wrote some aggressive poetry

it's always the same I become spiritually obsessed
perhaps because I can hear these beings but not see them
so I think my mind reasons they are spirits

I wish I wouldn't write when I get like this but I do
my fear is that I offended some perhaps even greatly
like what the hell is wrong with her?

on this site, we are very open with our souls
I think of it as a communal pool of thought
I hope you will forgive me for muddying these sacred pools

I have a lot of love for you poets you are really special to me
quite like my own family
I'm really saddened at the thought of distancing many of you

I've read some of the poems I wrote during this time
they are so angry
I don't where this anger comes from
I just know it's there staring at me in black and white

I hope you will understand
I didn't mean anyone any harm
none of them were directed at you
rather at these perceived spirits

may you pen on in peace
at one with the spirit of poetic art