Nothing Ever Is

 
You tear at my heartstrings
like strands of cheap cheese melting
I feel the coffee cup slip from my grasp
and with it all my reasoning
crashes to the floor.
 
What do you mean
you're pregnant?
Didn't they teach you
anything about contraception
at that school?
Who was it - I'll kill him.
 
You were the cutest, cute
so innocent
you were just how I imagined
Mom as a child
How we both laughed
you loved the swings in the park
dumb fairground rides and fluffy bears
You and me, you and me.
 
You're 14 - for chris-sakes - 14.
 
Yet you fire this bullet now
cold and unstoppable
its power leaves me weak
All my feelings are ground up inside
and I can't help but blame myself
that I didn't see
I didn't see my failures
as a father
because this happened on my watch.
 
Awh, come here honey
it will all be fine
we'll sort everything out...
 
But I know that nothing
can ever be the same
for after this
nothing ever is.